B Life

fuck you blogger, fuck you addsence

2009-05-18T22:54:00.000-07:00

just found out add sence is riping me off for my last 2 years worth of bloging.
they won't say why and of cource they habe it set up to be imposable to contact them.
i will not recive any funds 120-200 over the last 2 years from adds on my blogs.
fuck you addsence and fuck you google, gmail, cet.
do no eivil hu? fucking cunts!

weird vanila frosting pastry

2009-05-17T09:15:00.000-07:00

i'm eating is really weird!
so i talked a bit about why in my biking blog, why i'm in KL now insted of biking around exploring and being a lot more adventrous..
long and short is i'm a bit burned out.
tired
punding headact all day , can't find my sungalsses..
so i just hoped a train to KL.
missing my girlfriend, and my truck.
want to just chil out for a day without spending all my time lost, in the rain, playing in traffic of a billon mopeds in the bigest hurry of there lifes, and busses whos aim in life is to pass me as close as fucking possable.
yea also people really like to drive up next to you, like right next to you and then turn into you.. like hey theres a parking lot, why don't i speed up so i'm next to the honky, sweating to death in 100+ sun and turn hard left.. i haven't gon over anyones hood yet but it's been an amazingly close call a few times, and have rubbed off some rubber on peoples car doors as i'm shoved off the road..
anyways,,
looking into silat.. gonna take a day easy, maybe two before getting into that, also cheking out sailing classes, 250 seems steep, but who knows..
would be a good skill to at lest start to understand.
after a never ending train ride with rambunxiou indian children where the parents have no control, but dam it's a long ride can't hold it against the kids too much.. but could stab the partens a few times..
fianlay got into kl hungry, lost, in the dark, in the rain, and of cource as always needing to pee really bad.. oh yea and a head ach so bad my vision was bluring..
anyways found my way to kls version on kho sarn rd. but found a room, well a stinky dorm packed full of people.. but i'll give it a shot for a nuight guessing i'll move tomorow,,
after i get a good look around the city..

eh

2009-05-16T07:22:00.001-07:00

never quite sure if i should be posting here or in my bicycle blog.. guess today was by bike. so i'll post something on that.. it should be easy for you to find your way there,,,

singapore

2009-05-15T08:27:00.000-07:00

i've spent most my time in singapore lost trying to figure out where i am, starting to get a feel for the lay out of the city, today i checked out and old wwII bunker, the asian cilivlasion musium, which was kind of a let down, i've seen a bunch more in real life than what they had displayed there.
spent the reat of teh day looking for a boxing gym that dosn't seem to exiset anymore. got a room, well a 40 bed dorm over a rock bar for tonight.
stoped by a indian bar where thhey totaly overcharged me 8 bucks for a soda (the bar i'm over serves them for 2)
and was kinda treated like dog shit there, regaldless of how much i tryed to smile and make nice, so fuck it.
so far singapore has been alot like sf will be in 10 years except without the hords of roaming shitbags breaking into cars, begging and outerwise being anoying.. preaty sure they exucute people like that here.
tomorow i'm going to try and catch a lenardo de vinci exibit, and posably hit the zoo, though i feel i should wait to go with my girlfriend back in the usa, seems like cheating.. mainlys cuz i'm gonna go hump the monkeys.. wait no, no i'm not, not the monkey.. come here penguin..
err, i'm delerious i think.
not sure how long i'm staying, this whole everything being ass expencive and having to share a room witha ton of people, and needing to shower downstairs ina bar kinda sucks.
i think if can check out the crap i want to tomorow i'll head out late tomorow if i think i can bike to a city in time or more likely roll out the morning after.
poop sticks, at least a bit of an update

tama negera rain forest trek.

2009-05-11T19:49:00.000-07:00

got backl last night.
it was nice and intresting and chalanging at times..
i was out there witha group of 7, way too many.
3 guys from iran, very friendly but kinda sleezy, when they showed up for the tour they were chased by the guest house owner where they tryed to slip out without paying there bill. odd.
a young couple from amsterdam, who didn't stop talking the whole hike.. and preaty much scared away every critter we could have come across.
a 50 year old tubby acountent who i though was going to have a heart atack, and was very slow.. myself and the guide.
they all looked at me kinda of weird, they all had there huge backpacks, goofy zip pants, kacky travel shirts ect.
I had my small millatary asult pack dressed all inn black with a cantine and a big ass knife..
lol
anyways, the guide kept asking us questions, i swear he was just making up the awancers, becasue he'd ask us all and every time i was right, even when i was just guess, who the fuck would i know the life span of leaches, or what color fludid coming out of a vine isn't poisenes, so people were lokking at me weird even more.
the first day of treking was kinda lame, way too easy. the guid ended up going in the back to try and push the old aussy guy along who was putting about in the back, so i led the group, trying to get away from the amsterdam kids and there noise i ended up preaty much jopgging through the trails which was kinda fun, even though i had to stop every 20 min and wait 10 for everyone to catch up except one of the younger guys from iran who kept up.
the rain forest was alot less harsh than i had expected, i'm guessing the south american forest it the tough one, with all teh real nasty critters.
we were going so slow that we didn't amke it to the cave we were to sleep in till night fall in the dark and the rain.
which was ok for me, becasue it gave me a chance to hang out in teh very back and creep along trying to go quite and be very aware of my sroundiungs, which was a fun challoange, trying to watch where you step, to be quite and not trip, crouched, looking into the thick folige imaginging where ambushes could be of trip wires, at least it kept me intertained. though i'm sure i looked pleanty silly.
i was a bit anoyed becasue our guide wasn't much help, i'd keep asking him can you eat this or that,, and he'd keep saying no, not becasue you couldn't eat it but becasue he didn't like to eat it.. fucking lame but still i learned a bit.
that night we got to a huge amazing cave and i set about making a fire, witht eh help of some sap the guide picked up, all and all not back then i helped cook dinner, i was still too full of energy and everyone ealse was pooped, so i hit a near by streem for cooking water and to take somewhat of a rinse, which did feel great.
i slept having terable dreams, which ended in my chacking up people witha machity.. so i though i'd keep that to myself.
the next day of treking was tougher which was nice, finaly got a bit tired, everywhere getting atached by tons of leaches, the way they come for you on the ground is quite creepy, madly fliping end over end after you.
anyways... thats all i feel like wirting about for now.. oh except after the trek we got back into town after a hour or so down the river by boat, (why on earth do people , fucking grown adults need to say woopie, and waahoo while going down fairly tame rapides?)
got back into town and got started at by everyone, not sure if i looked like a dirty hippy traveler, or a mad man form the jungel, bit it was a bit disturbing..
but it was nice to finaly get out of soking wet closths, and squish soggy socks and shoes, hopefully they dry out some before I take off today..

rain forest

2009-05-08T22:31:00.000-07:00

been posting to the outer bicycle blog so haven't gotten to this..
so, getting chased by monkeys at night while lost on back Malaysian roads..
nappy rash
more 17hour bike rides o doom.
spent the morning deep (well, not that deep but 2km) in the worlds oldest forest 130 million years old, it was nice after getting a ways in. wish i knew more about rain forest survival.
after about 5 hours in i returend to town, going to look into a night trek tonight, and they maybe a 3 or 4 day trek to get deeper in.
theres the option of a 8 day trek which you get to climb a mounten, highest one in se asia i think. but if i did that i wouldn't have much time for anything ealse..
so we shall see.
also this morning i whent up into the cannopy walk way, a suspended walk way about 40m up and about 500m long, it was preaty cool, till some cunts came alone behind me and were yelling abck and forth to each outher scaring everyand any critter around away... it made me feel stabby.
i'll try and come back through and add pictures later.
have to say i don't look like the avrage tourest out here, they all have bright pink shirts and flip flops and fanny packs, while i'm i alll black lurking in the forest with my mil spec cantine, mil spec coumpes, and new nifty hand made knife al strped to me, i'm sure i totaly look the tool!
lol, what ever.. at least i can sneek up on people!
that should be entertaining enough for the rest of the day..

so..

2009-05-03T02:40:00.000-07:00

i survived the day from hell yesterday, as in my biking blog below
today i spent quite a few hours around town in serch of internet but got to see some cool stuff aswell.
this eavingin i whent in serch of silat the Maly martal atr, but got a weird dumming thing insted, it was cool but runined by too many burning man hippies
think i'm going to bike south west tomorow to kuala krai, a little scared but thats life.
think theres a place to sleep there at night, my guide book of cource has no info on the area as far as i can tell.
still i feel better having one.
from there maybe another days biking south east (gua musang)and then a train through the jungle.
i hope to find a shirt i can ware out in publice, i hate to spend the money on a shirt i don't really want but, if it will be more respectable..
would rather get something that would act as a suvener, or something i'd ware outher places, but guess thats not likely to happen
~We strongly advise you to reconsider your need to travel to the islands, dive sites and coastal areas of Eastern Sabah because of the high threat of kidnapping by terrorists and criminals. In the past, terrorists have kidnapped foreigners from coastal areas of Eastern Sabah, the islands and surrounding waters. If you do decide to travel to this region, you should exercise extreme caution.~
guess it's a good thing i'm heading west!
makes me happy with my choseen driection.

yestrday

2009-05-02T21:53:00.001-07:00

http://ohgoditishotdingding.blogspot.com/

fuck

2009-05-02T01:02:00.000-07:00

somewhere in Malaysia, ko ta bharu.
lost, can't fins a fucking guide book for shit.
been stuck in the rain and was pennyless for most the day finalay found an atm that would give me $
jus found out i'm not in the city i though i was. need to keep serching

going to mak etime to try and eat today.

ok

2009-04-30T04:53:00.000-07:00

feeling better.
once i got out of that hell hole, and got some food.
then found out that my atm card is working again.
hit the shadow pupet workshop, and the big wat here.
and then stuffed myface, was so full it hurt.
a few min ago i decided where i'll head in teh morninng, going west (can't rememebr the name of the town off the top of my head) and will aim for a train junctiooon, and find a train to Maylaisia, it'll suckgoing somewhere where i can't speak the langage but such is life.
i'm sure it's about time.
my iphone is out out of money and with the lower part of the screen not reaction to touch i can't refill it, so no more posting from the road. a full restor may fix it I'd say a 10% chance, but what do i know, but that meens i loose all my photos, apps, books, games, music.. so not too sure about that..

hopfully i'll hit towns with internet often to i can try and keep this, an my outer bicycle blog somewhat updated.

off the top of my head.

2009-04-29T21:03:00.000-07:00

trying to keep my head on strate.
having iphone issues, so can't conect to the internet trought that right now.
and the thais seem to not understand the use of the internet so internet caffees are daycare centers, with tons of little childred screeming as loud as they can and running around, climing on your chair loudly eating in your ear as they trya nd read your screen.
amazing fucking anoying, not to mention your ears start ringing from they high pitch squiealling litle fuckers.
anyways, in a town that i can't remember how to say the name, something like nakom si thanarat, it remeneds me of china, a small indrustral city crowed dirty, full of small shops, loking into the shops reminds me of my youth, when I'd see old tools from the 50's, alll that stuff is in use here, old printerpresses, mills, stick welders, and push in screwdrivers.
it's brutaly hot outside, really hot. and everything is just mangaled steel and cracking concret.
reflecting the heat.
everything is a maze, and therres no way to tell one way from another, therer a constant fear of being lost, i'm still not sure how i made it to my guest houes yesterday.
so i'm only venturing out a block or 2 at a time.
trying to block out the screeming so hard.
going to check out the musium and shadow pupet workshops. tryed to find a masage, thought as beat to crap my boday is it would help, but i found a few places after alot of serching, but the ones i could find, that had anyone there looked at me lke i was insane, and had no idea what i was talking about.
don't grab te child next to you and shake them..
lol
fuck
not sure where is next, i can contune to follow the coast down, or i can try to head to the east coast and look for more rock climbing. but that side has some brutal down pours everyday, and i think is quite a bit more expencive.
or i can head sooner than later to the train and get down to Maylisia...

eh,
so we shall, see. going to send out some emails, then go find food and finsh my landry.. fun fun,

oh by the way posted some new photos on facebook of the last few days.

bkk, 2

2009-04-09T23:37:00.000-07:00

my friend bought a ticket for me to go to kho tao, but it seems they arn't alowing bicycles, so after a bunch of crappy, confusing communication i finally found the shop, they then wanted 500B alsmot the same cost as the ticket for the seat to bring it.
but then they wantted me to take it apart and pay, i told them pick one or the outher..
i finaly talked them into letting me carry it taken apart ina bag. so i just finshed trying to pull it apart, hopefully i can get all teh crappy little plastic washers back togeather on teh head stem.
couldn't take off teh rear swing arm, the bolts were just striping out, fucking cheap-o crap. and teh pivit bolt i can't access.
and another bolt just spun, and i don't have 2 of the same size allen wrench, what a pain.
hopefully i can rewire the crappy little bike computer whos wire tore in 1/2.
fun fun.
so 5;30 in the morning it's off to kho tao, and if for fucks sake were gogint to be there anywhere near the full moon party, oh god the hell, i'l just hide out in the room in teh dark witha weapon, and beath to death the first skuzzy isralie theif that sneeks in to plunder the room.

bkk

2009-04-09T21:03:00.001-07:00

just got back into bkk, the train pulled in 3 hours late.
tryed sleeping last night with a florecent bulb 10" from my face.
it was so hot just tossed and turned witha soggy pillow.
rode my bicycle from the train station, while truckers and cabs tryed to run us off the road. it wasa a short ride but the air is filthy and dark gray, sickly foul, it's getting more like china here, everyone's getting cancer. but the most croupt still have there lamborgines and hummers. while the rest starve.
my phone battery is dieing, i'm trying to get a bus south with my bicycle, the new year is coming and the travel agents ues it as an excuse to try to over charge, or make the tickests you already have useless.
i'm trying to contact or find the shop where my friend got the tickets, i have a pounduing heangover from thoses pills yesterday.
the battery on my phone is dieing, and i'm afrade that i'm sweeting so much i'll short it out, like i did with my ipod shuffle.
everything soaked with sweat. the air is thick and nasty. maybe i should go try and train. though they are trying to say i can't use the classes i already paid for becasue of a new rule they made after i had already paid saying you have to use up all your classes within a short time perioud. crap..

Vientiane life..

2009-04-07T20:16:00.000-07:00

I'm still living in Vientiane, Laos.
I've got a routine down to my days, at night the mice scurry around my room, and the bed bugs lurk the walls, 6am my alarm gose off, and i drag my ass down stairs to my bike, and hit the streets. dodging through traffic at least this early it's not too bad, the shop keepers are throwing water out on teh sidewalks and streets infront of there shops to keep the dust down, old ladys pushing there carts of good along, too groggy to realy keep up with traffic i peddle alone on the side as motorcycle and trucks make right and left turns that i narroly avoid. i run reds witht eh masses of traffic, strength in numbers, is how they drive.
now awake enought to feel everything hurts, every mucel a bit too tite and too over used.. i zip across teh street into oncoming traffic, no one is suprised, they just weave around me and i turn past the shops that make the samll colerfull stuppas to hold ashes..
and a quick right into the chinese temple grounds. it's empty, only the sound of the chanting sound track echoing out from the closest huge wat, and tinkle of the bells.. distent music.. i park my bike, making sure it secure anything i don't want lost to it, the kids at the gym love hoiing on it and riding it around.. no worrys. so i try to stretch, ouch..
look at the bruses on my shins.. see some of the kids from the guy arive, listing to music on there phones, all mucle and smiles, in there billowing rubber sweat jackets, patched togeather with ducktape.
and i run,
and run and run, every few minets anouther student from the national team join in, after half an hour or so, there all lapping me, and my knees hate me. next are the very 1950's soivet style exercises, the ever present endless shaddow boxing.. the team pep talk, that in a monaton drone that gose on for ever, and i can only translate every 10th word.
through a haze of nats, the first part of the day is over, now a ride back through heavy traffic, dodging cars, busses, trucks and a millon mototcycles. always quite a few close calls.
back where i stay i share a meal with my lao friends, hit teh computer, landry, then it's back to my room, brushing the mice turds off the bed for a short nap.
I do the comute again, now to the big falling apart stadum, full of flys, and trash, and broken concrest. avoiding the trash, cow paddies, and outher nastys on the floor, i clime up onto the eneven stade covered in a carpet that takes the skin off like a chease greater..
we do drills, the instructers try to convay what i'd doing wrong in a mixture of lao, thai, and grunts.
the outher students laugh, and joke, and try pulling on my leg hair.
i'm tired.
and i can't seem to get the mucels structched out enought to be able to move normaly..
teh punching bags are solid as rocks, and trying to kick them fromthe uneven broken up concreat is almost as trick as not twisting an anchel on the uneven planks of the stage..
the suns going down, and the miskitos are out in force..... I don't even know why i'm trying to blog, but that a bit of what my days are like...
now, i'm trying to get a train ticket back down to bkk, but all teh trains a re full, there been alot of fighting and it's only a matter of time befre it gets bad, so i want to get in and out, seems thaialnd is faling apart a bit, due to the greed and cruption of the people in power.
i'm so sick of flys...

mirror

2009-04-03T08:17:00.000-07:00

looking at my reflecton justa few minets ago I saw myself old for the first time, it's sureal, I could see for the first time what i look like as an adult. I've seen outher with this look. a bit sunken. showing my age.
earler i was on the mekong, i had a bucket with some hot coles and a clay pot of boiling soup, stomic lining, beef, difrent green plants, and the random bug that was in there. it kept coming to mind, all this training, isn't really for any reason, it just stuck in my mind i'm not getting stronger just older.
I know i'm not that old, but that kept coming to mind.
buying gum i don't even want from dirty street kids. watching people with there cigrets and booze, almost a bit jellous about the companiship I can remember these items gave.
I walked past my guest houes after with a snack, some friends were outside, i walked down the street and ate in a dark small ally.
the hookers left me alone.
so on it goes, the good the bad. and all the solatary hours.
in a hurry to get back in a hurry to stay.
not wanting ither but not knowing what else to do.
and the seat to my bike is still hard as a basterd. damit

suk sie

2009-04-02T20:04:00.000-07:00

Still in Laos, I was sick forever, it's still bugging me but not enough to slow me down too much.
today I started my training with suk sie muay lao gym, there big on tequinque, which i badly need.
starts at 6am with running and exercise at a chinese temple. one exercises which wasw fun but hard was them calling out numbers in thai ( for my bennifet) a having to run to a difrnet number before someone ealse get there, have to translat thoses numbers quick in my head, but i didn't do too bad. I could see staying here for awhile, if onl;y i had more time.
back at 4 for boxing training, I have already learned some new stuff that makes alot of sence.
staying at the same old guest house, seeing people freak out about mice and bed bugs, but i'm doing fine enough.
I need to start my trip south soon, but really want to do the training, and still trying to break in the seat of my bike.
met a nice auzzy and us girl today and had a nice chat, sometimes forget what human contact is like, aside from strugeled small talk in Laoshion.

eek

2009-03-25T04:59:00.000-07:00

low on time, everythingok, gotta get out of thailand in a hurry, off to Laos tomorow, trying to get everything done in time.
going to take the bike and try to bike down laos. and in vientine try to sort out a thai visa, the new goverment in thailand are trying to push out all white people, it's a bit fucked.
i'll post when have some time

kho sarn

2009-03-11T07:10:00.000-07:00

sweaty, stumbling, googly eyed honkeys, sagging lard from hot pants, drunken glee with there new found dark skinned toys at bay.
the putrid dank funk permeating everything about. and reflecting from devious drooping wrinkled darting eyes with the smugness of a pocket full of sin.
sometimes.
endlessly alone, sore, endlessly injured. waiting for time to pass, muscles to repair. sleep to come.
another night in bkk

today

2009-03-09T07:24:00.000-07:00

today I when to some temples with my friend Wassana to make good fortune for her upcoming interview with the us embassy. we traveled across bkk, bus boat and tuk tuk to get to a beautiful temple to pray in many of it's areas. (i was sure to ware a non black shirt with sleves to go to the temple, but in hind site should have worn long pants to we could have gone to the grand pallace.) but at least i remembered to step over thresholds and all that jazz. after that we went to go set fish free and give food to the fish and birds outside the temple (also very lucky) I'm always amazed how many fish there are near the temples, you throw in a bit of fish food and the water is totally alive of huge squirm fisshys. and tons of sky rat pigeons. well unluckily one fell in the water and was drowning in the nasty Bangkok river. gnarly gnarly water! passing through the center of the whole city full of a million nasty barges.. ick. well, my friend was quite upset at seeing the poor bird drowned but i sure as fuck wasn't going to the the stupid former to go in that oily dark funk, with huge swells from all the huge 500 yard rice barges. I borrowed a stick from old lady vending something or outher who i couldn't really try to explain what i needed it for, I hated of think of my friend so worried about luck and her interview to have to watch this bird drowned, but alass the bird had floated farther out, and the fish were all about trying to eat it (circle of life it think) but a little old 80 year old hunch back grandma thought otherwise and jumped in to save it. but she quickly tired from the large swells, to I had to jump 1/2 way in to pull her out, at my friends and the growing crowds frantic 1/2 understood pleas.. of course the steeps into the water are covered in a nasty mossy slime, making it almost imposable to get in let alone out pulling a little old lady clinging to a soggy sky rat. but with the help of Thai guy who offered a hand (i think someone was holding onto his as well) shit i have to say, after boxing for 3 hours a day I thought I was fairly strong, it still took quite a bit of effort to get her in.
but alass the pigeon old lady and luck of Buddha all seems quite intact, and I haven't acquired any scary side effects from the water, yet.
otherwise, I'm still in BKK, training like crazy (except today) I was going to go down to the island of kho tao, but it wasa bit too close to a full moon party on a naboring island, think limy spring break meets burning man less DPW, (harf) (frat boy rave)
so I want to stay ass far away from that!
but i will travel that way after the thai new year which i'll be spending in sisket...
yep.

iphone blog

2009-03-06T20:25:00.000-08:00

Blog
Writing on iPhone. Got into bkk after 24 hours of travel, got to train one boxing class and get my bike into storage. Did some shopping, including
Got a call from a friend who is about to become a monk. Through the caotic system of phone calls from 5 different friends with varying levels of English we set up plans to go out to voot (soon to be monk)
It's ass hot, my eyes are way pissed at the filthy air. Ug
LOL and my friends here insist I sit and watch Thai soap operas. (one girl is being beat by an old man with a stick) while a row of women make vomiting faces and noises, then it breaks into song)
What an insane world.
I'm a bit concerned about heading out to a rural area so soon after arriving in Asia, I have a feeling my atomic isn't as tough as it once was. The food my Thai friends eat is much different than what the food stalls I have been going to have. I do like the chanc once again to explore all the interesting tastes, just not the ever constant pain. Ah ha, which reminds me of a tonic they sell at the pharisees here that I should pick up my next chance. It's like a minty disinfectant that you drink.
Today's going to be a long day....

new blog

2009-03-05T18:44:00.000-08:00

http://ohgoditishotdingding.blogspot.com/

so.. in a effort to try and keep things organized I'm going to trey and have one blog for personal stuff, one for training, and one for biking. it'll probably just make it more confusing, but it's worth a shot.
so about is the link to the first biking blog.. if this turns out to be a failed experiment I'll go back to just one.
feed back is always appreciated.

quicky

2009-03-03T16:48:00.000-08:00

hey, I have a blog on my iphone I still need to download to blogger once I find an open internet connection. (been checking about with the iphone but no luck so far)
I'm now back in BKK, and have been busting as at the Thai boxing training. it's coming back fairly quickly but my body is kinda falling apart in the possess, after my first class (about 2 hours after getting off the plane) I could barely walk for the next 4 days. yesterday after class I got a masage and you could clearly hear the sickly sound of tearing fasha and knots being riped apart!! eek! hurt like hell.
also have worn holes in my knuckles and piviot spots on me toes.. ouch!
aw the glamor of boxing..
but i'm hoping i'll be up to traning again this afternoon.
maybe can just work through this soreness.

some time soon i may start another blog to go along with this one, but focoused on bicycling south. but more on that later.

update

2009-02-15T21:12:00.001-08:00

I delayed my flight once again, had to get some tooth fixy done.. and it gave me some extra time to add a new complication to travels..... a bike, ding ding.

yep, I was given a brand new mongoose solution for free.. so gonna drag that across the world with me..

means i need to worry about all kinds of new crap (yea i should know better, in reality it's best to just get by... but)

so I've got a faggy overpriced hipster seat

(really no offense to my awesome friends who helped su

ggested wh

at to get)...lol umm, if that can be said w/o offense..

a tool kit i'll quickly loose and or break, some bike shorts... that I sw

ear arn't too bad!

.... lol, eek, sorry about the jumble, learning as i go (just wait till i switch to the tiny computer!

anyways.. like i was saying got a bunch of new crap to deal with but... the plan it to fly out on the 24th now, go train boxing in bkk for a week or so then start to peddle (har har har) my ass down to Malaysia..

more to come soon, my new eyes are going a bit funny from staring at this screen too long

time

2009-02-03T22:21:00.000-08:00

ok, trying to get back into the habit of using this..
so i've got about a week left before i need to head south, so what all am i going to try and do before i leave...
finsh the lift, steel braded brake lines, stering dampner, paint prep ect on entropys truck, still waiting for the parts to get in.
pick up my kung fu dummie from sf, found where it is, was stolen from me awhile ago
move my tools to.. somewhere..
find some pants to travel in that don't totaly suck
work fri and sat in sf
move all my vending stuff
try to spend enough time with my girlfriend tht she dosen't give up on me
get my travel computer ready
taxes
drive to san diego
dentist
and maybe get my eyes zapped
drive to la

crap sticks...

cra

again

2009-01-31T22:17:00.000-08:00

I hate blogging.
really.
But the people I care about continue to tell me to keep it up so. ... I shall.

I have a bit over a week before I'm to fly back to Asia. The thought of going away from jaime sucks. Really sucks.

The colective stupidity at the club I'm vending @ is draining the life out of me tonight. Ug.

1k+ k

2008-05-10T00:41:00.000-07:00

just got back from my bike trip.
Jamie and I rented a xr250 and got a map and headed out not knowing what to expect.
I knew i wanted to try and stay to dirt roads so we first when north to a trail marked on our map as motorcycle only, and that's not for some hippy reason.
it took most the first day to get up to where the drit road started and it was starting to get dark, luckily a crazy thai mute named Cum led us to his home where we got some food and stayed in a small room they had. that night a huge storm came in and it rained all night. the next day we hit the roads and they were rutty muddie and often crossed by knee deep streams. I don't have our map with me now so I can't for sure say the exact rout we took but after a long long long day of rough trails and beautiful views and 3 chest deep river fording (luckily each time a random thai person wandered out of the jungle or was trying to carry there scooter across so i had help pushing the bike across. after the first fording the bike didn't want to start again and once it was it was only 1/2 running, i think because a wet coil, of course on the sandy beach of the rive the bike fell over and broke the mirror..
we rode and rode and after about 8 hours came to the end of the road in a small unfriendly village in the middle of nowhere, they told us to turn around and go back and that we missed our turn, so we when back and started exploring every little trail that went off the main trail we were on, poor Jamie got a leach on one of the exploratory river crossing (with out the bike) she was not happy about that..
finally after back tracking all the way back to the last major river crossing that we would have to bring the bike across we turned back and tryed again, final we found at one place where the trail ended the trail was up a shallow rocky stream that was about imposable to see. after that we met a really nice family who we ate lunch with and they offed to let us stay with them for the night we probably should have but sharing a little hut with 15 people seemed a bit much so we continued on.
a while after it shattered rain pretty hard and we had to cross some waist deep rivers but those i could just ride most the way through.
the next town was a creepy opium town but it was pouring rain getting cold and dark so we stayed there, but didn't trust them after they wanted 100B for a beer, so we whet to bed with out eating or hanging out, we were in a big room, almost like a grain house, with one guy in the corner smoking opium for 7 hours strate with out moving.
we slept with one eye open and clutching our bag.
the next morning we set off early and the roads were shit, slippery as all fuck, we made it about 1k before the first crash. it was mainly just trying to navigate between deep rain ruts in the road while the back of the bike slid everywhere. we got to the next town and discovered the map was missing. the only way we had gotten this far was by being able to neam the next little town or village on the map and have people point. so we had to turn around and go back to the creepy opium town, in the pouring rain and crash again in almost the same place, this time grating my face across the side of the hill. and breaking off the clutch perch mirror mount. ok fuck this i took off both mirrors... got to the creepy town and found our map which some little kid had found to play with.. tip them and head again down the shit road, soaked to the bone grumpy and i think that's when we cashed again on that road. but Finley got out of there, and hit up a little shop where i got some galoshes for $2 so i could get out of my soaked shoes.
a few days from there we made it to Pai and it was tourist hell, so we continued on after a day break to dry our cloths (of course once we get in the rain stops for the first time in 48 hours)
but once we got out of Pai and hit the rird road to Wat Chan it started raining, and our plastic sheet was missing so we got soaked. luckily later that day we found a fire next to the road and dried out ourselves, and found a scrap of plastic, and hid under a pice of scrap tin till the down pour passed. on and on, slick mud trails now on the rige line of the mountains shrowed in mist, fucking beautiful, chased by blood sucking beetles (litraly, they were keeping up with the bike!) a few more crashes and we figured out 2 things , one we were on the wrong road headed towards May hong song and two the rear tire was bald and had no grip on the wet clay trails. but a farmer showed us were we were on the map and we should be able to get into a city in a few hours, so on an on, till it was late, pouring, we were chilled and covered in mud from crashing and sliding out onb the trail too many times, filany Jamie had to get off the bike on steep hills on the way up and down for the bike to even be able to make it, but we were laffing at it most the way, me trying to crawl the bike down a trail that's becoming a river the front tire facing down the hill and the rear end fishtailing madly. one hill the whole way down the bike was totaly sidways except the front tire.
we fialy found some strip of prevent they were working on so we layed the bike on it's side and dragged it onto the concrete which soon ws coved in heavy bamboo rod grids i was soo pissed just hit the gas and drove over the fucking pile but the road was over in just another few hundred feet.
we passed through small town and then figured out we were far less than 1/2 way to the city so a really nice kid named 2 let up sleep at his house, and the next day we hung out around the fire trying to get dry. but we got to Mayhongsoung and got a new tire slept in a super creepy holel room that smelled like dead hookers, and continued on. after trip to Meow Microwave village (just for the name) we headed to may lin noi and amazing that day it wasn't raining!!! back into the forest and we stayed with a super nice hill tribe family (the lady's in traditional clothing with stretched ears and copper bands around the legs ect, spiffy enough to shame the neo hippys we know) we were so bummed when they wouldn't except any money we tryed to give them. a few days later and i pulled over at a place called Hot Coffee thinking it would be a nice treat for the girl but we found out they had a tree house, a big one way up a tree with plumbing anbd lighting and everything so we stayed there for the night. the next daywe were tired and a bit grumpy and after about 11 hours we made it back to chaing mai, 13 days after we left 1000 + kilometer of some of the most beautiful rough roads I've ever seen. fucking cool. I'm sure I'm, forgetting a bunch or just too lasy to mention but, i keep telling myself i'm going to dich the blog anyways.. soo
yep.

on the road

2008-05-04T03:33:00.000-07:00

soggy, tired, covered in mud.
we have gone 4oo k in 6 days, all on dirt/mud trails, we are in ma hong son now waiting on a new rear tire, we've fored 3 cheast deep rivers, taken to hiding under a pice of plastice we round on the raod for the terable storms, which aper when we qare on the road but never when we stop.
it's been great but we are ass tired, been sleeping in small vilages (one of them a really creepy opiom den)
we are taking a day off the road to try and get our cloths to dry out a bit, dry our map enough for it to not turn to pulp.
bla

upward and onward and all good things to come.

2008-04-27T19:37:00.000-07:00

so i'm waiting for the delivery of a CMR250 to head off into the wilds of Thailand, Moosie and I are going on a 3-4 day off road motorcycle trip, we've got a map and a small bag packed and a vage idea of where we want to go and see, first stop should be pai if we can make it there before night fall. the map we picked up shows the rough dirt trails that connect small villages, and they are 4x4 dry only so should keep it intresting, only7 thing i don't know is how far to expect to make it each day, so hopefully we won't get stuck in the middle of no ware.
while in chaing mai i have been taking full advantage of the great medical facility's, have gotten a bunch of xrays and a ton of tests, trying to take advantage good hospitals and medical service while I'm in a country where it's available and cheap. (fuck i hate Americas medical system)
anyways, I hope going with a 2 stroke isn't a mistake, it sure would suck to have it break down.. gonna keep my fingers crossed.
I'll try and hit a computer at our next city to update how it's going.

ugg

2008-04-21T01:44:00.000-07:00

gurm.. i hate this bloggy blog blog..
but i guess I'll babble a tad.
seeing how in the last 14day I've had 20 message not responded to on myspace, so no one to write back to..
just got back from heading out of town, whet out to a place called 2nd home. in a tiny village of 14 family's thers a monk who speaks English and you can viset him and help him work on his property and learn about local plants, mud brick building ect. ok, sounds cool, a fucking ass twisty 5 nauseous hours getting thrown about in the back of a pick up with tons of boxes and house wife's and puking children. we get to a beautiful temple on a beautiful hill on a valley, on the other side is some low mud huts to sleep in, and i small living space.. and about 12 obnoxious khosarn road travel hippie kids.
bitching and playing the worlds worse crappy music on the guitar, and bickering and generally acting like people under 20 do. hell.
pure fucking hell, the bit of work i got to do out there was nice, i helped a local farmer plant some of a peanut crop, but in reality the people out there were helping no one, the villagers humored everyone by letting us "help" but i have the feeling they probably would have gotten it done faster with out us there.
after that i helped on very nice, well meaning goober with a compost project that he had been working on, i guess he had been at it for about a week and had about 3 sticks cut. in an hour I helped him get it planed out, 1/2 built and on secured foundation (I still give it a 90% chance of falling off the side of the hill.)
we were invited to a mediation at night, but i left once 1/2 of them were asleep on the floor with there feet pointing a the buda image.
hell.
and really I've realized why Israeli people travel, to make the French look like less of dush bags.
i'm going to try and go buy a GPS unit and go on a few day motorcycle ride..
anything else, well, my foot still feels broken, it's been about a month of trying it ignore it. I finlay when to a Doctor, i thought the fact that it now snaps every time i step is probably a bad sign... we'll that was useless.. they told me the same thing every Doctor has ever told me every time i've gone to one about an injury, "take some ibuprofen and come back again if it doesn't get better" fantastic.
well, ok, guess i'm a bit pissy, it's hot.. bla.

well, at least i don't have some fuck-tard singing anymore 4 non blonds over and over and over....

Myanmar

2008-04-03T19:46:00.000-07:00

Well, it's been imposable to post at all from anywhere in this country. so this is the first time, but i was a bit over the blogger thing anyways.
so far I've spent a week in Yangoon, mainly training traditional Myanmar boxing, which is quite crazy. unluckily i missed the one of the few time a yea they had live fights, but I'm still keepijng my eyes pealed, there boxing here isn't quite like Muay thai, they use more sweeps, trips, arm locks, head buts, switching strong side and spinning back fists.. oh yea and they don't fight with boxing gloves on! yeiks.
the training in Yangoo was great, the instructor pulled me from the class (at the YMCA) and started giving me private instruction with some of his more advanced students, and he started bring me to his Akido studio. what was pretty cool, I only wish it was possible to spend more time in this country to train, buy Yangoon is filthy, hot, and crowed so donb't know how long i'd want to stay in it anyways.. that and tanning on super smooth concrete floors sucks..
next I went to golden rock which was preaty amazing, huge fucking bolder balancing on the last 2 or 3 inches of a cliff, and the bottom of the bolder which is touching is only about 3 inches, it's a poplar pilmragig point for budest, and they've covered the bolder in so much tiny bits of gold left theres not a bit of rock exposed.
after that I hoped on the top of a pick up with a bunch of Burmese guys, they get pickups build a steel cage over the bed so lady's can sit in the bed and men on the roof. it was a long brutal 6 hours in the sun but the view was amazing, and all the guys packed on top got a good laff at the check points where we had to get off, or cross through areas holding onto the sides ect, and I was clue less, but they were super nice (this was before I could speak any Burmese) and offered me snacks of deep fryed Beatles (bright green and yellow suckers with heads that looked like praying mantises) I took that truck to Bango and spend about 40 min trying to negotiate a fair price for a bus to Taungoo where I was searching for Akiko a famous boxer who might teach me. on the bus I met some super nice Nuns and chatted with them a bunch, at the end I went to there convent and hung out and talked a bit and they showed be a good guest house, Taungoo was really nice because there were no tourist at all, I didn't see one white person, so I was a bit of a celbraty when I'd go to the market, after a couple of times of going they got to know me and I'd get followed by a herd of little kids jumping up and down saying hello over and over again, and father back a pack of giggling teen age girls.
thge markets had some great handmade products, and I finaly got a pair of handmade sandals made for truck tires, with tire tred on the soles and all, the'll take forever to break in, but still sweet, (all set for the Apocalypse, you homos can prance about in your new rock fashion booties, lol)
while in Vietnam I tryed to find a pir of the ho chi men sandals, but at the chi nchi tunnels they only had really huge ones and super small ones..:(..
I finally got to meet Akiko and his father, crazy ugly scary huge guys that were super nice, but they didn't seem interested in teaching so I just said hi and got a photo with them.
after Tangoo, I headed to Kalaw, or tryed to, I sat (with my pack of nun homies) at the side of the road for about 4 hours but no bussed wanted to have a white person on it, I guess it's an added responsibility, and theyre whiny. but finaly I got a bus and got into Kalaw ass early in the morning. I wanderer arou8nd like a zombie looking for a guest house, and after walking the whole town I found one and checked in, then I headed out again to look for a trek guid to get to Inlay like, after several hours of wondering around and talking to people, none of which could understand who I was traveling alone, I found out it would be ass expense to get a guide, and they had rairly ever had someone alone ask so i'd have to find someouther people to go with, but, I hadn't seen any honkys in town so there didn't seem like much of a chance of that.. back at my guest House i found out a couple of Canadians had set off earlier that day and if i left right away I could probably catch them and there guide.. so without even getting to use the room I had rented I got my stuff together and headed out, I brought an extra shirt, a rain jacket, tooth brush, water uv pen (to sterilize water), my canteen, and a small scarf type wrap from Vietnam to use as a towel ect, and some soap and hit the road, it took about 4-5 hours of practically running to get to the village where they were but we made it before sunset, the canden people were nice. it was funny they had big back packs with stuff hanging off them everywhere, I felt a bit silly with just my hip pack with my stuff in it (of course i still brought more than I needed).
it took 3 full days of a quick paced walk to get to inlay lake, along the way we hit a few hill tribe villages which were intresting, preaty much forgotten by time, the second night we stayed in an old (150 or so year old) budest monastery, where we got woken up at 5 am by loud chanting. kinda cool.\
in the morning we got to spend some time talking to the head monk, who taught us all about how the world was a big frying pan that spun and that we should stay away from the country's on the edges so we didn't fall off (all this while he's wresting hjis arm on a globe) but he explained they the globe was just round to it was easier to spin. he also tryed to explain how the Moon was eaten by some big critter in the sky but it was kind of lost in translation, our guide/translator didn't seem too keen on telling us all about what should be common knowledge. he also talked about how Myanmar is the biggest and wealthiest country in the world, ect ect(*it's funny, anywhere you go in the world the back wards people always think there country is the biggest, best, ect.. it reminded me of all the "America fuck ya" people in the usa) but you could tel the monk was quite bright, it was just all the stuff everyone there knew to be true, like that the foragers that go there have the same color skin as the Burmese people, but we put on makeup (sunblock) that turns our skin white)
Inlay lake was great, a whole little town built over the lake, all the houses on stilts and little boats to get around, so cool, even little baby kids paddling around from here to there.
I spent one day out on the lake going to the different shops and seeing the neighborhoods and floating gardens. another day I spent biking around on a rickety old bike (cover your eyes bike nerds) and petaled out to the west mountains, I was trying to hit some hot springs out that way but when i finaly got there they had jacked the price up 3x so I said fuck that. on the way back a monsoon shower started dumping so i hung out under a tree with a big pack of monks, I ended up helping them huld cut down trees and then when the rai got worse I hung out with them under a huge Chinese truck. they put a monks robe over my shoulder so i didn't get cold and gave me coffee candy, they were great, joking around and laffing up a storm, but after about 45min under the ruck i decided i better just deal with eh rain and keep going, even though i would have liked helping them finish moving the wood.. oh well. the way back took a long ass time, the roads out there are just rocks pounded into the dirt, and the bikes are old 40's style so it was rough going. I stooped at a road side bamboo shack and got some food, but there were some government guys there and that made it really uncomfortable there (the government here is like George Bushes wet dream, they are rich from taking bribes (just like all our politicians) and if anyone doesn't agree with them they re killed. so they all strut around in there fancy uniforms and in there big shiny cars while everyone else is poor as fuck) anyways got to start wrapping this up... the next day i walked to the east mount ans and brought some donations to the monks there, toothbrushes, pens and such.. it was a nice 4 hour walk there and back, then I needed to get to the junction to catch my bus to Mandalay, yesterday I took a tricshaw around looking for military truck parts which was interesting but i didn't have much luck (except for getting a cool Bemuse license plate) and I climbed Mandalay hill, which except for getting followed up and back down by the police was nice, and I even joked with the police so they weren't too bad... today I think I'm going to try and head to Saggin, but I worry there a $10 fee to get in and I'm getting worried about $, there are no ATM's in this country.. so well see what happens...

through

2008-03-03T02:47:00.000-08:00

thorough Vietnam, to Bkk, to Chang Mai, and a lot of kaos, back to Bkk, getting bit by critters on the train while sleeping on the floor with farm critters. shitty 15 hour ride.
beak downs and moments of clarity, got deep into the training, started to think i was getting somewhere, and then got a beating, deep deep bruise on one shin, could barely walk for a few days, but it's getting better, at the time i almost blacked out, but then got up to keep sparing, only to get a finger jabbed in the eye which got a bit bloody, and then 2 more kicks to the shin.. haven't trained since... that sucks,
now down in Koh Chang with Moosy and Tabby.
trying to hid from the sangsome. and failing. spent the day traversing the island, an ass jarring hour ride, and now to cook up about 10 kilos of fresh sea food.

but doing better. no idea whats next.

Sleep, don't weep, my sweet love
Your face is all wet and your day was rough
So do what you must do to find yourself
Wear another shoe, or paint my shelf
Those times that I was broke, and you stood strong
I think I found a place where I...

Sleep, don't weep, my sweet love
Your face it's all wet 'cause our days were rough
So do what you must do to fill that hole
Wear another shoe to comfort the soul
Those times that I was broke, and you stood strong
I think I found a place where I feel I will...

Sleep, don't weep, my sweet love
My face it's all wet 'cause my day was rough
So do what you must do to find yourself
Wear another shoe, or paint my shelf
Those times that I was broke, and you stood strong
I hope I find a place where I feel I belong

Sleep, don't weep, my sweet love
My face is all wet 'cause my day was rough

D.R.

lama muay thai

2008-02-21T21:56:00.000-08:00

I trained at this gym yesterday with Kim, it took hours of driving around to find it, but luckly the bike is fun and easy, one of the best condision of bikes i've rented in thailand so far.
finaly after driving in circles some cute young kids hopeed on there scooter and had us fowwlow them to the place.
it was a fair size gym, with two rings, a bunch of bags, but no mats anywhere... whats up with that.. who wants to skip rope on cement? well i tryed for a bit and it sucked so i just jumped on a tire for a bit to get warmed up.
i felt quite silly in my size too small boxing shorts and no shirt when everyone ease had a shirt on, but what ever..
odd thing about the camp, tons of whitre people, almost all white people! so weird, but there was a white owner so i gues it makes sence.
we got a free set of thai wraps and the class was only 300 B wich is an ok price, seing how most places want 500 for a single day.
(which is way too much!)
th eowner took us through the basics and found deep flaws in every move i had. it was good but really humbling, i felt like i didn't know shit.. at all.
but if i could get that detal of corection once a month or so, i'd totaly switch over to this gym. i guess just another reason to move to ching mai
after that i got pulled into the ring to do some pad work, and the coaches were nice, but pushed me hard. it took a bit to figure ou thee rithom and what they wanted but it was ok.
they alkso did something i haven't seen since fiartex in the usa when the last 30 sec they push you really hard, then pushups between rounds.
after 3 round i was preaty beat and did some bag work, but got called into the ring for clench work , where like always i got my as anded to me, but did lear a bit, and got to trrain witha really nice, way ripped thai kid. i think i got a bit more respect from them becaue each time i was slamed into the flor, i just jumped up smiled and whent back at it..
afterthat i when to work my kicks on the bag but got called in to the outher rind and told to put my gloves on, so i did and a very stern thai guy wanted to spare.. oh fuck, now i was regretting having my outher guyms name on my thai shorts..
i started out expecting him to just work slow tec work, well after the first hard as fuck kick to the side i knew that wasn't the deal, he pummled the fuck out of me, amnd i came close a few time s to cursing hi8m out in thai, but i just kept getting up each time my legs were kicked out from under me, trying to recompose myself each time the wind was knocked out of me, and trying not to lo to see if i hada bloody nose yet, though i could tell he was going easy with the punches..
that when on for about 20 min,
i got in a few good hard kicks and push kicks, which I always apoligised form and asked if it hurt and if he was ok, it seemed i finaly broke the ice with him and i think he got bord with knocking the wind out of me, or kicking welts into my shins...
the restvof the time he, like most people at the gym want to ask me questions about Kim, and like everyone ealse in Asia they won't acept the idea that she's not my girlfriend. or wife
and everywhere we go people are telling us how nice we are togeather and asking when well have babys or insisting onhow cute they'll be, much to Kims horror.
what an insane world. anyways SHe trained with a crazy old dude, and i even had a student come up and warn me about him, he kept tryiong to dance with her and ask her out.. what a nut job..

anyways, i'm still sore as fuck , and quite beaten up, not sure yet if i'm going to go train again, Kim wants to.. but i'm not sure.. but still have a few hours to figure that out....

chang mai

2008-02-20T19:29:00.000-08:00

been here for a few days, showing Kimberly around, having her meet at my crazy friends up here.
been serching out some goodies for my truck, and getteing her some tatical poutches an such so she can look all Lora Croft. today we hope to get some muythai training, just need to find a good gym. it has been nice to have the extra encuragment to go train, if anything i've been the lagger.
which is usaly not me.
anyways, it's been fun up here, but a bit expencive. we've gotten to rent some fun bike, first day I got a cbr 400 rr, but it was fucking floged, so I turned that in and got a super 4 which is far more fun than it should be. for a flying couch it zippy and feels nimble, probaly juyst because it dosen't have square tires like the rest of the bikes up here.
last night we rolled around this my friend pee pots bike club the hell raisers, it was fun to get to ride in a pack again, after so many years. and I think it was proably a noval experince for Kim.
(lol, and i seem to always freek out the bikers up here, they always cring when i jump my bike off the curb, last night i drove down some stairs but didn't have enough room to launch the bike off the curb so ground it a tad, thoses poor guys think i'm nuts)
today I hope to track down a snorkle system, or at least part of one for the trucky, becasue having to mod up my own system will be a total pain in the ass, even if i can just get the head/scoop i'll be doing good, but trying to explan to shops what you want is a bit tricky. and of cource traveling with an asian girl everyone is ass confused when i can speek thai and she can't, normaly to such an extent we can't get anywhere with them... it is funny though.
unluckly we missed Laura by one day, she was flyiong out of chaing mai while we were on the train heading up.. crap sticks
i think we have about 2 days or so left up here then to head down to BKK, to do more training and be in for Moosy and Tab to arive.
it's such kaos, after last time preaty much alone for 8 months, now with so many people visteting, it's exciting, but sometimes overwhelming, but i am very excited for Moosy to get here.
hope fully we can do some scuba togeather..
outher than that and constantly loosing my mind... everything is working it's self out.

............................
I surely knew it was a trap yeYet my hands they would not listenI shoulda known your word was flapComin' out all sweet an drippin'O so where could i go - yes but to the lordI been to your house an' see what you adoreI left there stiff - stiff as a boardWhere could i go but to the lordWhen will i hurt for heaven's sakeWhen will i suffer for the sake of heavenAll my love well it is madnessFreely given to you folks with gladnessI will not live and die - no not by the swordI am weak without the joy of the lordTaste and see that the lord is goodLet's bend our knees like we know we shouldWe can't see clear - our eyes are made of woodTaste and see boy that the lord is good
16hp

"Bottles & Cans"

2008-02-16T19:02:00.000-08:00

I think about, you know life and what it really means,
I drink about it,
I think i'm busting at the seems,
Don't over think it,
I think somebody told me that before,
Yea whatever thats my attitude what can I say,
Evidently I was raised to be this way,
But incidently there's days I really want to change,
If heaven sent me,
Then why do I feel this crazy? got a man down mayday mayday,
Bottles and Cans,
Seeds and stems,
Down to my last roach,
Here I am again,
Caught between tomorrow and yesterday,
Tellin' myself it'll be okay,
Bottles and Cans,
Seeds and Stems,
Will I ever change, guess it all depends, feels like nothin' ever went my way, tellin' myself it'll be okay,
Broken-hearted, I've been listenin' to my head scream,
Got it spark it,
You hear that or is it just me,
What's the matter are you feeling just like me,
Has anybody seen my mind i cant find it,
Life is flyin',
Somebody rewind it, were all dying,
And just runnin' around buyin' it,
I think we've gotten a little too open minded, got a man down, mayday, mayday,
Bottles and Cans,
Seeds and stems,
Down to my last roach,
Here i am again, caught between tomorrow and yesterday,
Tellin' myself it'll be okay,
Bottles and Cans,
Seeds and stems,
Will I ever change, guess it all depends,
Feels like nothin ever went my way,
Tellin' myself it'll be okay,
Broke and lonely,
Chokin on dro can I borrow another tommorow dear lord,
I'm scopin' hopin' some door can open,
And my folks don't even know me no more,
My kids are growin' and my age is showin',
Will of the seeds I sow gonna sprout i'm not sure,
The doubt and the lure is a couch of valour,
With a mirror and a blade and a pile of inpure,
Bottles and Cans,
Seeds and stems,
Down to my last roach,
Here I am again,
Caught between tomorrow and yesterday,
Tellin' myself it'll be okay,
Bottles and Cans,
Seeds and stems,
Will I ever change,
Guess it all depends,
Feels like nothin' ever went my way,
Tellin' myself it'll be okay,
Bottles and Cans,
Seeds and stems,
Down to my last roach,
Here I am lookin',
Caught between tomorrow and yesterday,
Tellin' myself it'll be okay,
Bottles and Cans,
Seeds and stems,
Will I ever change, guess it all depends,
Feels like nothin' ever went my way,
Tellin' myself it'll be okay,
Bottles and Cans.

-Rehab-

A day in Saigon

2008-02-15T06:00:00.000-08:00

again let me apoligise for the shit spelling, bloggers spell check isn't working , still.

so while in Vietnam it's been like this, First day in Saigon i got a bical taxi and hit the war rements musium, a cathredral and a chinese tempal, then early the next moring headed to phan thaip to meet Kimberly and her family, after a few days down ther i came back to Saigon and have kept busy, doing tours the last 2 days, dush bagish but a good way to see alot, on a tour you can see in one day the stuff it would take to see in about 4 or 5 with out all the hassle, but also with out all the chram that that hasle brings.
well, today was about just tracking out on my own and doing stuff, and taking care of stuff.
i was out walking around for about 10 hours or so, started by picking up my ticket back to bkk, i was sad to dump that much money 200!!! but need to meet somone whos flying into BKK soon, so unluckly don't have the time to head up through nam through laos, ect ect.
next i got a map got lost and then figured out my way, hit the big market, which as people fucking rave about it, wasn't that specal, but i guess most people haven't wandered the markest of kashkar so maybe i'm just jaded.
i picked up some presents for my buddie/(past) roommate/domestic partner Dave tryed to bargen on some ouyther stuff, but had to walk away becasue i couldn't get it to a price i wanted..
lol, side noat, it's funny, i've bought about 5x as much crap this trip on my last trip out to this side of the earth.. odd.
anyways, after that i walked for ever till i hit the reunifacation palace, got to look at all the photos of Vietnams gloryis defeat of the US invaders, step by step. (there a whole shit load of that here!)
i wandered around the palace for hours, which was intresting, never anything i'd plan to do, but it was cool.
ooh heres some photos from my phone (which as a camra is about 10x as conveniont as my stupid ass expencive camra...
not sure if this will work but i'll try.
a coool tank.. wel fuck all tanks are cool but this one still has ins machine guns, fule tanks and tracks!
thisn is one of the tanks that smashed through the gates when the palace was retaken.

and in the basment was lots of cool old stuff like this...
oh and this!!!

sweet!
after that it was a few miles to the post office to mail some post cards.. which was crazy enough in it's self, shit ons of tourest taking pictures of the post office, tour groups, there was a gift shop.. not sure what that was all about..
ooh and here you dopr the mail a big goopy bowl on pecker snot looking paste!! so weird!
and of cource coming out i was ataced by a relenless moto driver, and a girl that damanede that i buy staps from her... they both fowleed me for about 5 min auntill i wandered out into traffic..
about that..
ok, in china you just ran you ass off thoug traffic, in thailand you stay out of it, and take the ped bridegs that are everywhere. but in cambodia and vietnam, you walk very slowly, as they wizz around you at every side.. it's disturbing, i try to not even look becasue if you flinch and stop you'll mess up someones timing and thell plow into you!
i got a masage and a ear clean.. sounded so weird i had to try, it was weaird and a bit painfull, i'm not sure if i even want to try to exlane what it felt like!
but the whole experince was intresting and fun, the girls were super nice, and kept patting my head and pinching my cheaks, and one threatend to hit me becasue i didn't want a drink.. that the same one who insisted she feel me gum, and when walking on my back sliped off and instintvly i reached out to stop her fall and touched her butt, she made a very unhappy noise about that..
then after a long march (and a few wrong turns i got back to my guest house, across the street got a t shirt that i'm really going to be happy i bought or will really regret.. also a pair of sandles made from tracter tires, they are really cool and i've wanted a pir since i saw some old ones in cambodia at the land mine musium, i had a chance to buty some atuntic ones at the vc tunnles but they had ones that were huge, and tiny....
the ones i got are the right size and a bit better desined, but not as athentic. the real ones are just tire side wall as a soul, intertube as straps, the ones i got are a bit fancyer.. but a shirt and some shoes for 5 bucks i can't complane.
ow i'm gonna go out and get somethine for moosie that i saw yeasterday, and think she'll eally like.. but of cource i have shit taste when it comes to getting stuff for outher people.
bla!
p.s. i ate chicken featusius yesterday. there half developed bones were a bit crunchy....

who's got yellow feaver?

2008-02-14T21:50:00.001-08:00

P2130541, originally uploaded by noble matthew.

two nice korean air stewerts, behind them a cool lady from Kenya, and to the left a Chinese man that had his faimly with him, and i was the only one on the trip that could speak chinese, and they couldn't speek any english.. lol, crazy days..

mekong delta

2008-02-14T21:46:00.001-08:00

P2130539, originally uploaded by noble matthew.

BEEEEZZZ!

sweet

2008-02-14T04:08:00.001-08:00

P2050448, originally uploaded by noble matthew.

you can't argue, thers something sexy to this..
and not just her sad face..

2008-02-14T03:46:00.001-08:00

P2030434, originally uploaded by noble matthew.

sigon...

2008-02-14T03:22:00.000-08:00

so, today i hit the mekong delta, i think really becase of the years at the LL listing to Duncan storm on about da nag and the mekong delta, as if he were an old war vetran.. well then he'd kick the crap out of someone... lol those were the days..
anyways, it was fun, it was silly tourest crap, but i made it fun by just jumping into everything, helping guid the baot, sitting outside the cabin, helping little old ladys about.. it was fun.
i broke down and got a conacal hat, yea, white people in them are fucking stupid, but after cooking myself in cambodia...
i gotta say, asain girls in them, are painfully hot..
it was a lot of sillyness, but a guy i met from Bangladesh who was way too excited to be my friend kept things entertaing.
and all the vitmanise people i came across were fantastic, i'm guessing the people in the nort are the ones who gave viatnam a reptaution for being a worable palce to be a tourest.
yea, yea, i know spell check isn't working on blogger for some reason, anoying but i don't have the time to fuck with it..
today on the tour ther was a chines family and it was fun yet fustratin to chat with them, i really have forgotten sooo much of that langage..
ok, well, i'm being glutinos and got a privat room for the night, it'll be the first time i've had a privat palcae to sleep in the last month!!
woot.
i'm not going to head up north unluckly.. nor to cambodia again, i need to get to thailand to meet a friend, so i'm going to have to break down and buy a 200 ticket.. fucking sucks!
but, it's that or take about 40 hours of bus strate to make it in time.. and it would still cost clost to 100 or more..
tired.. gonn get off the internet.
i keep trying to use flikr but it keeps not working, so i don't knw when if ever i'll get my photos up, i did pick some key ones and i'm just working on getting those to laos now.. fucking flikr! but if notinhg easle i'll get about 3 up on myspace..

in a hole!

2008-02-13T04:30:00.001-08:00

No!
Huh!
Live in a room
An empty room
Four walls
White walls
I live in a hole
Huh!
No!
I live in a hole
Not some trailer park
I won't die
In a chip-to-lie?? home
I live in a hole
Huh!
Live in a hole
Huh! Hoh! Huh! Hoh!
Every day
I get less civilized
It's a lot of work
To dig in that hole
Hunh!
No!

big black..

eh my title just made me have to throw that.
well, ok, after a 7 hour chat with moosie i regained a healthy chunk of my sainty, so on agian on again jigity jig!
after catching about 6 hours in a room full of 12 people, but one of the first times sleeping in a bed for about a week, i got up with the sun and hit the VC tunnles.
yea i was stuck with a shit tour group, sadly it's kinda a necasary evil, but seeing how i've been living the better chunk of my life in a self induced hald faided vietnam flash back i had to go.
yep yep,,, first we when to a crazy temple where the twisted mix of many religens had crated an odd system that i in now meens have the energy to try and explan.. wow, yea i just got a herd of drooling slobering, yaping vitmise childern at the computer nex to me, .. and they won't stop touching me, .. ok i picked the one up who kept touching me and put her in a chair that i found, thats better..... lol
anyways, yea crazy temple, single secared eye, crazy colered robes, chanting, a bit of crazyness and 1 billion anyoing tourest shoving there camras in everyones faces, fashes strobing, and old german people yealling to try and talk over the muics the small chines instrumt band was playing, and a group of girls in white rodes were singing.. i was glad to get out of there, next off to lunch and of coure they (as laura would say) brought us to a west-arant, lol, one look at the x3 overprice mune and i took a walk down the high way, much toi the horrar of the few honkies sitting outside the west-arant,
about 1/2 a klick down the road i found a cool place to eat, and hung out wth some col, shirtless guys who spoke not a like of english, and my vietmanise is a sad sad thing!
but everyone way really nice and i got to drink some rice wisky/wine out of an old sprit bottle, but fearing missing the bus out here got me back to the bus early.
the VC tunnles were great, but i really wish i had someone to share the experince with, but it was still cool, everyone though i was nuts becasue when they showed the tiny trap door to the caves and asked if anyone wanted to go down i said fuck yea and jumped in! it was cool, and i got a realy silly photo of me coming out.. then another tourest tryed and got his fat ass stuck, and it was funny!
there was a shooting range but at 1.60 a bullet i said fuck that... till i saw the full auto m60, but didn't have enought $ with me anyways.. on display to shoot they had about 10 guns, and i had them all less 2, the m1 carbine and the m60, and once people found i knew a little about it i spent about 15 min awancering queations about them.
cralwing throught the tunles was, fun, but wuld ahve been cool to have someone to share the experance with.. at first 1/2 the group got about 10 meaters in and said fuck this, about 50 meater down about another 1/2 turned around, and at the first exit everone ealse excetp me got out, in some areas there were dim red lights monted in the wall but most of the time ou were in pitch black, i did have my little key cahin light to use (thanks again ribeye!) but that just semed like cheating, it was crapey and weair but not too bad, till i found a turn off in pitch back, i was all alone down there and was a tad bit orryed about getting lost, but whats the point of living if we can't die in some exciting way, so i took it, it ended up being walled up a ways downb, as were quite a few outher turn offs, i passed a bunch of exits, but more and more were boarded up.. guess not often do people travel this far down.. everything was alright till all the sudden the tunnle was going down and getting tight enough to need to crawl. i stoped in pitch back silance, a bit scared, who knows how far past where i was suposed to come out i was , but hey it's for tourest, ut it's vitenam, and if some idiot gets lost no ones gonna get sued...
all alone, in a hole, who knows how far undergrond, i sit there contmplating, listening in the total blackness to things moving down there, probaly just little bus echoing off the walls, ok.. and i keep going, a bit invegrated by it, i guess i'ma bit of a junky for kaos, danger, ect.. but after about 10 more min i the dark i come across another dim light i the wall, so this isn't a forgotn part of the hundreds of miles down there.
anyways after awhile i comeout into an old surgry room, but no, it wan't cool and crapybecasue the roof has been removed to let light in.. it was an exit tot eh top, there was another tunnle leading on, but some very large very old folks were headed in that way, and that spells no fun.
right now i'm contmplating hitting the mekong delta, cool, but i've kind had my fill mof being hurded around with tourests.. or... getting the 30+ hour bus to hanoi to meet back up witha friend. i'll have to decide tonight before 10pm, ..
so we shall see.
oh or i could get a 100 doller plane ticket, but thats a fortune to spend ;)

Coal Black Horses

2008-02-12T01:42:00.000-08:00

Just as sure as that suns gonna shine
When he comes at his table I will dine

Just as sure as that dog's gonna whine
In my heart no longer will I pine

Just as sure as by evil you are torn
The sky will open up an an angel blow his horn
an down come Jesus lookin' so fine
Just as sure as that girl she is mine....
an I say

Hey hey hey it's always forever
Hey hey hey it's never or now

I dug a hole an hollowed it out
Yes an I fell in
Oh lord I'm caught in the cord....
the cord of my own sin

Shoot 'em up cowboy - yeah I got away,
but I been dragin' this chain the whole way.....
an I say

Hey hey hey it's always forever
Hey hey hey it's never or now

Oh yea boys I know an I am certain
in your heart of heart ye all are hurtin'
Oh no no no not that name not to me
It's much too hard to get down on my knees
But just as sure as by evil you are torn
the sky will open up an an angel blow his horn
an down come Jesus lookin' so fine
Just as sure as that girl she is mine.....
I say.....

also

2008-02-12T00:33:00.000-08:00

girls speaking Vietanmise are really cute!

Saigon... shit; I'm still only in Saigon...

2008-02-11T22:27:00.000-08:00

Saigon... shit; I'm still only in Saigon... Every time I think I'm gonna wake up back in the jungle. When I was home after my first tour, it was worse. I'd wake up and there'd be nothing. I hardly said a word to my wife, until I said "yes" to a divorce. When I was here, I wanted to be there; when I was there, all I could think of was getting back into the jungle. I'm here a week now... waiting for a mission... getting softer; every minute I stay in this room, I get weaker, and every minute Charlie squats in the bush, he gets stronger. Each time I looked around, the walls moved in a little tighter.
(Apocalypse Now)

here i am again, after a wirl wind, on the edge of anaroxia, cutting, pill abuse, and taking up smoking cigrets with a fiercness, not to mention the deep (devient)depravity lurking in some cold corner of my soul.
the last week was something, something good, enlihting, but igrance sadly is well conected with some sort of bliss.

so for now i'll just be alittle sad for people who are blind to there true overwhilming worth. morn it and stop with that.

i'm back in sigon.
the bus was of cource an experince, not out of the ordanarly but it's something to talk about insted of outher things which i shal give my mind and heart a rest from.
it's a older minni bus (aka van) with seating for about 10 people, and with 30 people in it. hot sweaty people, (no working ac of cource, thats more of a norm) vomiting people, people who keep trying to ask me to do stuff with i can not understand. the large dose on zanax i decided to talk on an empty stomic i'm sure did aid me.
thou i did finly figure out that they were ither throwing me off the bus to leave me by the side of the road, or.. oh yea, getting out the push the bus for about 15-20 min.
i kept nodding out, and of cource without head rests i was head butting people. thats nice, old folks like that i'm sure. shit come on some one's gotta like that, but it was a stardling way to reenter relity over and over and over agin, but i don't know if it was the overwhilming vomiting from one of the girls in fromt of my emo dope dance i was doing they finly let me sit in front where there was a head rest, and that really helped.
after our 1000000 stops to pick up people on the side of the road, drop off people and what semed just to yell at people, (quite a past time on the bus, screaming at motorcycles as we wize by with inches to spare..)
i'm getting hussled off the bus and atacked by motocycle taxi drivers, after quite a bit of negoation, including walking away about 3 times, have one of the drivers good heartly grab me by the sholders and yell something?? in my ear a few time (oh a a wink , a nod and a signed out message from the granny selling quail eggs that the price i was driving was fair) I got to my dorm i'm staying at over an internet caffee..
just need t share a tiny, steamy room with about 20 outhr people.. no problem.

anyways. i don't feel like typing any mo...

star no star

2008-02-09T23:54:00.000-08:00

Babylon was built on fire
-out of- the bones of useless machines
It hurt to breath!..xxx
(And) you fell away from me

Packs of helicopters divide
Across a crowded sky
What angels did you ride
(As) I staggered at your side

Babylon was built on fire
-out of the- bones of useless machines...
It hurt to breath!
(And) you fell away from me

Citizens in their homes
Missiles in their holes
And citizens in their homes
And missiles in their holes...

?(This highway needs rain)
?Across both of its lanes
?Until all that remains
?Is this heart and its flames
?And the rumble of trains
?'Neath of a handful of stars

The brightest night I ever saw
Across an empty parking lot
No stars...

A.S.M.Z.A.T.T.L.L.C.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

when confronted by blinding beauty: turn away. it's always tainted, thickly the air of insanity sufacates.. to who the owner of that dence fog is of course imposable unclear.
we know the out come miles ahead, in past lives, far before the circumstance.
.not only do all systems fail!

..

and to attempt a force forgetting of the system-a (of) everything in a fools skill, sorely lamented by the ones who can see, luckily some times I'm not too bright, to only hope for more lapses/idiot grins.

sigon...

2008-02-05T03:03:00.000-08:00

just got in, zanaxed out the whle trip, people say it makes you feel nice, it just puts me to sleep, and i don't see whats so exciting about that, unles your ona bus or plane.
once i got in i got my on ward ticket for the morning and hit the amreican war crime musium, which was cool becasue there was tons of tanks and stuff like that..
so far everythingfs been really easy, i had to serch for about an hour to find a place to sleep that wan't going to be 17 bucks or so, found a cramped stuffy dorm.
but, it's just sleep.
i recived an emaile from my friend kim, so i'm not sol, and i'm not stuck in sigon for the tet offencive, opps i meen chinese new year.
i've gotten by not getting too riped off so far,got to go buy a nam smi card, and maybe try and eat someting again before i try and crash..
i also have tro say i so afar have been amazed by how nice the vietnamise people have been, i have heard nothing but horrar story about how awful they are to tourests here.. but even though i have had a few scams pulled over on me, everyone has been nice, and not even gotten mad when i catch them short changing me, or tryng to change prices after the fact...

paddy's sport center

2008-02-05T02:53:00.000-08:00

while in cambodia i whent to paddi's gym, to train muy kamer, or really just muy thai/boxing. gotta say that was the shittyest class i've ever gone to, and trained at fairtex before!
abslutly no train, no instruction, and unless you have tits no pad work.
the place was filthy, it was cleaner traing on the parking lot with the cambodian guys I met a few days before.
and it looked like no one there knew how to fight at all.
no hand wraps, no water.
a real disapointment seeing how I was hoping to move there and train for a few months.
now i gotta say, the old dude patty seemed really nice, and in there defence i was lot that that night was one of there bigger classes they have had.. but still. it was fucking pethitic! and i left fustrated, fuming and not feeling like I had gotten fuck all of a work out.
I have been planning in the back of my mind building a web site about train in south east asai, and i would give this place another try before make a final decision. or even gving them an ofical wright up.. but fuck! how anoying.

getting lost..

2008-02-02T19:27:00.000-08:00

so after a long day getting sun burnt, lost in insane Cambodian traffic. what to do, well. how about get lost in the city at night.. that was fucking frighting! in a big way, my travel friend wanted to go see a friends brother so we rode across town, but then she wanted to stayt out and drink, so i was stuck trying to find my way back to the guest house.. and i have a sepcal skill at getting ass lost.
I'm not sure what was more whorfing, aproching intersections where people don't even slow down for there red light they are running, the on coming traffic with no headlights down one way roads, the dark.. death allys that you need to pop into to turn around, the deep uncovered service holes that you need to nearloy avoid..
in this city every night at lest 4-5 people die at night from the roads and traffic..
after about an hour of driving in circles i was concidering ditching the bike and just taking a tuk tuk. what hell. and then after her long night of drinking the responce i get is how could you have gotten lost it's so easy.. suck!
that sucked big time, worse than the scary as shit traffic the day before..
anywyas, yesterday we finaly made it to the kamer rouge killing filds, it was a bit desturbing. today I hope to make it to the tourture prison.. so fuck up shit..
anywyas.. guess thats it for now. (looks like the spell check won't work again.. fucking Cambodian computers!!

pheon phen hell

2008-01-31T22:45:00.000-08:00

well, yesterday we finaly got out of seim reip. of cource we missed our first bus because a certen travel companion's one night stand adiction. but at least she talked the ticket offic into giving us tickets for a latter busm so i can't be too angry, maybe just a little jellous about someone getting action.
the bus wasn't too bad, and we go into the city around 9, once off the bus it started, we were greated by about 7 cambodian men running full steam at us. shouting at us.. oh crap, well they were just the ever present ever anoying every visious tuk tuk drivers, here is seem anyone with a motorcycle is now a tuk tuk driver, and they will get in groups around you, tugging and pushing and yelling, wispering obsentiys, offering drugs hookers and just being sleazy in creapy wispers. you can try and run but they keep coming out of the wood work, following you for blacks not taking no for ab ancer. and once one gives up another 3 join in, trying to keep you from reading your map, talking to anyone, or being abole to figure out anything. 1/2 the time you don't know if they are tuk tuk driver, or just scum bags trying to get there hands on you.about every 10 feet one will drive up and block your path with there motorbike, so you can't get past. while the herd behind you closes in.
i finaly remebred the trick of walkinbg aganst traffic, so they have less time to try and block you, and can't follow as easly. hell.
we walked for about an hour, dealing with this to one part of the city but found that there were no afordable rooms so we had to take a tuk tuk to another area of town.
dark dank allys, and in every showow a guy wispering , tuk tuk, want something?, cokane, lady boom boom, any anything ealse to make your skin crawl.
we checked every guest house and they all were full. standing there fucking beat, anoyed, hot and sticky, on edege from all these guys fowling you 2 steps behind and trying to block your path, hundreds of them!
about the 5th gusest house we were at trying to ask for a room, which of cource there was none, a french guy comes up and starts punching my bag. seeing my gloves, want to french box? i just keep saying no, looking ass tired, and knowing he's just drunk and trying to have fun, but there is a thick dark haze of pure hate arounbd me, enamating from my eyes and ears, coming out like vapor in my breath, he gets a worryed look and takes off. trying every huest house in this guest hous getto, swarmd mby men in shawos and tuk tuk drivers, at least here there are sooo many people *though 99% are human waste( at least on one is joning to just trry and jump us, just rape us with there offers of all the mortal sins one can buy.
after about 12 geast houses with no one working at them or full, we see a sighn for sunset guest house, down this dark deserted ally
well fuck, what choice do we have?
down and down 5 min, then 10 min, then 15 min down a wet, dirt pasth of small ally ways, darker and darker, each time we almost stop and turn around there anothe sign, just a little ferther, almost there... yea right, free candy, just get in the van.
we go and go, a pack of filty dogs following us in the showowas, my old shitty pack cutting into my sholders.
finlay get htere and it's just a locked gate.
so we turn around and start headding back then from the side out of the shawos, something lunging at us, a growing sound and the slam as a large filty dog lunges and slams into a chainlink fence about a foot away.. i'm too tired to even get a burst of adrenilan, my friend screams,.. fuck
so we keep checking, flowwed and getting blocked and getting wisperd to, and getting pawsed at. finaly fianly fianly, get to a place, get a room. yea the condom posters on the walls make it preaty clear what this place is.. fuck it, need sleep, and i'm happy i've toted my silk sleep sack with me. what lara calls my dush bag.
but she's always giving me shit your looking like a creap, wearing neard shoes, and my looser business cards, so i should be used to it..
so excet for someone knocking on our door and trying to get in a few times.. and of cource lara grabbing as she tryed not to piss her self.. yea it was a bit sketchy.
but that part is over, got a room with 2 big beds, full of honkys.. eh.. phon phen.. not sure how i feel about you city..

re last post

2008-01-30T00:26:00.000-08:00

it's not my first day in asia. and i'm nt a 45 your old acountet from tenasie.
i now about the girls, here. no need to send me emails waring me against the obvious.
thanks for the concerned emails.. but really. i know the deal.

ankor wat ect.

2008-01-29T04:05:00.000-08:00

earlyer today.. well, ass early today at 5 am i headed out to ankor wat.
got there in the dark and crossed the huge oat to the main complex.
and as the day slowly faided into view the temple apeared before me.
yes is was cool, yes it was amazing. yes to all that.
but perhaps becasue of my travels through so many ancent countrys, i couldn't exactly see what all the people are shitting them selfs over, perhaps with a bit of reflection i'll better undersatnd. and so it

so it's a goal to reserch more ankor history.

i'm getting more of a feel for cambodia, the busy dirty streets, the tinge of kaios, still flondering with the langeage.
i've got about a week left to work with in cambodia for now, then i need to make it into Sigon.

tomarow i hope to ither hit up the landmine musium, find a bus to hon pen, or both.

the maskitos are so thick here just walking you have to be carfull to not get them in your mouth and eyes. i finaly broke down and started taking the malrea medicin andrea left with me whan she viseted last year..
it seems that no amout of deet and keeping these little fuckers from eating me alive.

yesterday I had an intresting incounter at dinner, i was sitting alone at a small open air restrant, really nothing more than food vender stals in a peranet location. i was trying to ask in on plate came with rice, it think it was the fryed pig sternum but they wern't getting it, when the small grl who worked there roughly grabed my hand an draged me smiling behinsd the food cart to show me what was in teh pots, and i said yes but continued to try and ask about the rice. the guy there siad yes yes yes, and i sat down at on of the many empty tables. not far into my meat to preaty cambidian lady sat dow at my table as well and saterted eating and trying to talk to me. telling me i ws preaty. next thing i know there are 4 girls. really preaty all sitting there, chowing down and trying to talk to one. one lady cat spoke some thai and some english , w chatted for awhile. al the girls worked at a dance club/sprip club/masage parler/restrant acorss the street.
very strang, i was worryed the whole time that something fishy was going on, they kept offering me there food, an the waiter kept bringing me tea, and soup and kept saying free free!.
so odd, all teh girls finaly headed off to work. so strang, at thhe same place the guys hanging out there wanted me to hang out and drink beer with them but i was just too wiped out to atempt to comunacate and worry about scams ect ect ect..

cambodia

2008-01-28T00:03:00.000-08:00

after may many hours in a honky packed mini van, a crap cambodian bus and then sharing a car with some nice polish people we got into seim reap last night, high on tramadol and cranky
found a guest house dorm for $1 a night.
this town s a tourest trap, and I feel far removed from the real cambodia.
i'm strugling with the langauge, like when i first came to thailand. but i think in a few days i could figure out some of it, though i really need to start working on my vietnmase in a hurry.
lol, what a mess.
I met a russon guy whos hich hiking acroos all of asia, hope to travel with him down to phon pen by hiching. would be a great way to start traveling!
tomaorow I go to ankor wat and the sorunding temples. should take 2-3 days to see them
...
in Phon pen i've been told there are some boxing schools to check out, so that would be cool, and at least make up for the pain in the ass of lugging these stupid gloves with me!!

anyways.. till next time

ling, chang and katoy , oh my

2008-01-26T01:09:00.000-08:00

hey, so trying to drop something before i had to cambodia then on ward to Vietnam,
tomorrow moring i'm off to Cambodia, like a good white person i'm going to ankor wat, it'll be a tourist hell, and i'll be part of that gross tourist swarm eroding this ancient wonder of the world.. but,,, hey.
yesterday I went swimming with elephant, which was really cool, even if it took a huge dump in the watering hole
but of course, i took one pic and then the bat on my camra died. fucking fantastic hu?
geeze
to going to try and scoot through Cambodia to nam in about 9 days, then get into Saigon around the 6th to meet a friend who's grand parents live in a fishing village in a near by area. hang out there for a bit then all head up to Hanoi, and from there bring her back to Thailand to show her around. i think the plan is bkk, and chaing mai.
also Moosie coming soon so i'm ass excited about that, it's going to lead to a very busy next few months, which will really help take my mind off the whole getting blow off about working for burning man this next year (it's not official just a gut feeling)

monkye time

2008-01-22T02:04:00.000-08:00

not much time to blog, but down in kho chang,
been riding motorcycles around, drinking, and today had a monkey climb all over me. and grab at me with it's little stinky monkey paws.
so very cute.
also got to help some thai guys deliver vegatables by boat by sea.
ate my first western meal out here, and got sick (am sick)

ache

2008-01-17T23:00:00.000-08:00

yesterday training was good. i began working on training left handed. it was a bit confusing at times, and it's going to take a lot of practice but i think it's doable.
after class i whent to rachamadon stadium to buy some new gear, but the shop i had gone to last time was gone, luckly there was a twins shop,i'm not much a fan of some of the other gear makers, at least not as far as gloves go, for training pad work.
seems that all the prices had just about doubled, maybe i was getting riped off, but i try to bargain like crazy, and had only gotten maybe 10 buck off everything.. and i spent almost 200! but to think what that would have bought me in the states I can't com plane too much.
I ordered up 3 pairs of custom designed shorts, (either they';ll rule or just suck, I'll not looking forward to having to having to try to send them back if they are not right) also I got a new pair of gloves, boxing oil, anchel supports, a steel cup (yea talk about being put on the spot by the lady that works there.. what size?! what size?! lol, I opted for med (not like i could try it on in the shop) but I have the feeling it's gonna be way too small.. maybe i can just use it for a hat or something..
I got a warm up suit, it's a rubber jacket and pants that I've seen many boxers and muythai people using, guess it makes you sweat like hell, not sure if getting that was a mistake, I know it will be good to have in the usa, but it's already ass hot here.. though I am extremely paranoid about getting fat here... doesn't help that all my thai friends keep saying i'm looking chubby.. but maybe that's just supposed to be a complement or something... i don't know.
anyways, i can't kick myself too hard, if I got this stuff in the usa it would probably be about 600 bucks..
the rest of the night i was assss sore, my knees ache, everything was hurting. the pain kept up up till about 4 am, but i feel ok now, a bit sore but good.
I would really like to train, but i have to try and keep myself from doing so, I think at least one day off after every 2 days on is a good way to go. maybe they'll let me come by and lift weights after class.. anyways, if they say something i'll stop and leave..
so my hair keeps getting shorter, most likely due to the fact it's so hot, and the idea of a pile of shag on my head is not a pleasant one. not sure if i'll end up giving into the idea of just shaving my head again, it's been over a year since i last had a shaved head...
last night I whent out and saw cloverfild, yesterday was it's first day out here, ended up seeing that one because it was in English, didn't know anything about it before seeing it.. pretty cool.
but I think my friend who I saw it with was not too into it, the Thais have a much different expectation of movies, guess you'd have to see a corny, slapstick style of thai entertainment... eh.

ok, my brina is going flat.. till next time.

count down to kho chang

2008-01-16T21:39:00.000-08:00

crap
as the US continues to plumit, it dosen't look very favrobly on my travels, seeing how my money is in us savings.

I'm in BKK, my knuckles are raw, red and probaly in need of some iodine. after training they'll get some, but i know they sure won't be preaty after my class today. you'd think they would just build up some scar tisue and toughen up.. eh.

yeaterday i was hitting the focus mits so heard my glove tore open and the padding shot out.. if only i could figure out a way to mantain some cardio.

soon i'll be heading south. going to kho chang, not sure how long i'll be down there, but ionternet is over 2x as expencive so, i'll be off the radar for awhile. my friend down there was sugesting i stay 3 months! don't think i could handle living on the island that long, last year it tryed to kill me with a haze of anaverys, unwanted suprises, a mountan of pills and windy roads.

this time i don't think the world is cruel enough to try that again.

after class I plan on going to ratamadon stadioum, and ordering up a new pair of fight shorts, still argueing with myself on the final design. drunken monkey across the front in thai of the monkey head, or something... gonna pick up some new gloves, we shall see.

made it into BKK

2008-01-15T16:12:00.000-08:00

so, i ended up taking a bus from the morning market in Vientine, a small bus with about 20 seats, and about 60 people loaded in. so many people had to hang out the door. it was preaty bad, i kept worrying that i was on the wrong bus, but there wasn't really anyway to ask, so i just whent with the flow. worse caem to worse i could always find my way back to the city.
finaly about after an hour (i was sure glad i had the satand on audio book on my ipod to distract me.) we finly got to the border, for some reason all the border control seemed to take for ever, and it was a bit over an hour of standing in lines to get through. but while in line i met a girl, looked totaly lao, but i knoticed she had a usa passport, and when she spoke she had a southern bell accent, it was very strange but awfuly cute. she has grown up some where in kanses or some such place in the center of the usa.. it's always odd to meet people from the usa but not from real citys, normaly the only people in the usa that are likely to travel are ones from the big citys... eh
anyways, finaly found my way to the train depot with 10 min to spare, got a seat, and sat, it that brightly lit car, for 13 hours, every 10 min someone pushing down the hall, bumping you, calling out what ever it was they were selling. i spent a good amount of time just hanging out in the open door at the front of the car, sitting 1/2 way down the stairs that lead out. everyone in awhile a steel girder bridge would fly by a foot or so away.. a sobering reminder of how fast we were going... i often can't help but ponder on my many , many hours spent sitting in thoses door ways, if i slipped, lost my footing, ect. how long till someone noticed i was missing.. a few hours would someone see my empty seat and wonder.. probably not, maybe when the train got to the stasion and my bag was still sitting in the rack. I'm sure people forget bags all the time..
anyways, i think i fell asleep for maybe an hour. then we pulled into bkk, the sun coming up.
i tryed to rent a room, but the small rooms were full and i'm not going to spend over 5 bucks on a room that I can probably do without..
so it's 8am now, in about an hour it'll have been about 24hours up. I think in a few hours i may try and check again on a room, try and get a little sleep before training today. but it'll probably be too hot to sleep by then..
i'm delirious... I think my ipod got a virus.. lol.. such is life, at least no night mares :)

BKK bound

2008-01-14T23:31:00.000-08:00

ok, i'm lagging, on the computer.. ehh.. it's almost as evil as the tv.
i need to head to nong kai to catch the train, but insted of buying an overprived ticket like i normaly do, i'm gonna try and find a bus to the friendship bridge, and find the train stashion from there, hopefully threre will be a free seat.
there are tourest busses, that are fairly cheap, that go strte to kho sarn rd, the armpit of thailand, but a convenat place, but they often crash and kill everyone, becasue to save money they give the driver speed insted to a replacment driver after 10 hours solid.
so, i was going to try and go much earlyer.. but ya know how it goes..
the plan is a few days in bkk, do some hard core boxing, then down to kho chang. hopefully intime to catch my friend kai before she heads off to auz.
i got my overpriced visa for nam ready, so at the begingin of next month i can go in.
hopfully the friend who i plan to viset,, well and her grandparents.. hopfully she dosen't back out and not go..
right now i'm just waiting for the last of my files to trasfer over to my ipod.. then I'm gonna hit the road, and hopfully everything will work out :)
till next time..

end of days (laos)

2008-01-13T20:31:00.000-08:00

so, i have tryed to post a few outher blogs but the computers here have been crashing like crazy. my vietnam visa should be ready to pick up today, after i whent through all the hassle of finding the emasy and getting in i found out my outside contacts could have gotten me my visa for about 1/2 the price.. oh well, live and learn,.
today I have an apointment to meet with the Laos natanal boxing team and coatch. a huge cuben guy, who through a bit of spanish a bit of lao and a bit of help from a crazy martal artest for Irac I've been able to comunacate.
I'm still a bit suprised a Cuben and an Iracie, will speak to an american!
last nigth i ran around a bit with a 50 something bat shit crazy , but very out going and nice Jahovas Witness. which ws cool, i was tempted to goin him on a motorcycle adventure to an area where the Lao goverment has been at war with the Moung tribes people. but right now i don' think i have the time, and i don't know how much anti eveloshen talk i can handle.
suck i need to take off to, becasue a Mung friend has offed to bring me back to his tribe so we can do a forst walk and kill and eat stuff and such. but i will be moving back to Laos in a few months, and getting a place to stay so i'll be in a better situation to do such stuff.
I am a bit nevrous to hit Nam, becasue for the most part i have heard nothing but horrer storys about how awfull most Vietnamies are to tourests. also becasue I'm going to meet someone i have only met breafly at a club and chatted to a bit over the net, she has granparents who live in Nam, so i get to go meet them, which is fucking rad and defantly the best way to get the feeling for a country.. I got some vietamise on tape lessons, so hopefully wit a bit of disapline i'll learn to speak a bit before i go there.
still morning the loss of my sock and bandana...
and still having a hell of a time trying to get my photos up loaded to the net..
probaly going to try and set aside a block of time laster today to try and do that.
OUTHERWISE I'LL TTRY IN bkk.

i'm geting the feeling BM won't have me work for them this year.. i haven't been getting any responces from them, so i'm not sure about the tenitave return date i had planned. or what will happen to my bm car, or trailer. though i have some ideas of what i can do with both.. anyways. I wanted to get t something down while i could, who knows hown long the power and net conceting will hold up.
tomaorw I'm off to nong kai to try and buy a train ticket, well see if i get stranded over there.. lol, or if i have to spend 12 hours without a seat.. lol. anyways.

good bye sock

2008-01-11T03:15:00.000-08:00

shit....
ya know been fighting this cold, so i';m not drinking so haven't been invited to go out.. so spending lots of time alone.. and thats cool..
but just some shit..
lol
today i decided to do some landry, got some detergent, took over one of the bathrooms upstairs, emptyed and washed out the black bucket up there,,, washy washy washy.. wring out sopy closhs, dump dirty water down tolet, washy washy washy, rincing closth, dump drithy water down tolet.. one more wrince and dump... oh crap there goes some of my cloths down the shitter!!
fuck!
guess i'm gonna have to try and go in after them...
ick.
fucking hell. so now i have one sock, and no bandana. and a runny nose.
a reacuring fash back to "fuck whats that going down the ..."
oh well.
so i rented a bike and spent the rest of the day in the herbal sauna at a temple a ways away..
the folks at the sauna were happy to see me again...
eh, what can you do

Chaing Mai Bike Week

2008-01-08T22:38:00.001-08:00

Chaing Mai Bike Week, originally uploaded by noble matthew.

MCing out heres not just about the road!

sisket provance, thailand

2008-01-08T22:34:00.001-08:00

sisket provance, thailand, originally uploaded by noble matthew.

whats in the basket?

sisket provance, thailand

2008-01-08T21:48:00.001-08:00

sisket provance, thailand, originally uploaded by noble matthew.

cruzing ...

sisket provance, thailand

2008-01-08T21:45:00.001-08:00

sisket provance, thailand, originally uploaded by noble matthew.

My friends Kai's cow at the village in Sisket.
sometimes I'd get board and go pester the anamils....
:)

PC300562

2008-01-08T04:09:00.001-08:00

PC300562, originally uploaded by noble matthew.

ahh, i jacked up my hands..
but now most of the skin has grown back.. lol

PC280552

2008-01-08T04:08:00.001-08:00

PC280552, originally uploaded by noble matthew.

I saw this in Bangkok and thought it was the greatest thing ever.. the owner wasn't very amused about me taking a pic of there lic plate though..
anyways, if you get it you get it..
lol......

ok so

2008-01-08T03:59:00.000-08:00

i think i'll be trying to switch to a photo blogging style o bloging and see how it works, your feed back would be most helpfull.
thanks

Chaing Mai Bike Week

2008-01-08T03:49:00.001-08:00

Chaing Mai Bike Week, originally uploaded by noble matthew.

test test test

photo test...

2008-01-08T03:35:00.001-08:00

Flickr

2008-01-08T03:30:00.001-08:00

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

snake eggs!

2008-01-06T18:48:00.000-08:00

well i just got back from viseting my friends village with him, i've met his family a few times, and though i can't comunacate with them very well, they seem happy to se me ab\gain. (he just told me yeater day they his mother ordered him to teach me laos so i can chat with her) lol
I'd have to say the highlight was before we leaft i got to eat water snakes from my friends rice fild and the eggs they cut out of them were really tasty.
i found you always hang out with the dude, bbqing! yea often he can't speek english, but it's usaly him and you who will eat anything! also bbqing here is much more exciting because the food is always trying to jump off the grill!
i've been a bit of a zombie the last week, becasue i have just been crashing where ever i can, still haven't gotten a room, (but i think i just got one for tonight)
so haven't been sleeping real well on tile floor in a room with 4 outher people ;), also been having to drink far more than i like to, but it's really rude, not to drink with people here.. thought thats filany calught up with me and i have a bit of a cold from getting worn down.

today i hope to catch a boxing class at the natalan stadum. or at least check it out.
buti still have 6 hours till then
(i when and it was coached by a big cuben guy and helped by a guy from irac, (yea being an american will make me popaler, lol) anyways they were nice but the cuben guy and i couldn't comunacate very well, wit my crappy spanish and lao.. but i don't didn't have any of my gear with me, so i watched for a bit, and then just trained out in the stadum fild for a bit, got to try and teach some little lao kids kung fu! lol. all and all it was a good day)
hope to try and get my digatal camra working again.. keeps saying the card is locked.. (had to just format the card, :( but i think i still have the photos, fingers crossed..
outher than that just trying to take it easy today, and get better, i'm alwfully excited about someone who maybe coming out from the USA a see me and travel as well, that will be nice.

sitting in a internet cafe

2008-01-03T20:18:00.000-08:00

ahh, here i am again/'
trying to get the pics off my cam and onto flicker.. a bitago, out of fustration i fainaly got a pro flicker acount. eh..
so now i'm busy being fustrated with it..
looks like it's going to take about 5 hours to down load my pics.. i'm sure i'm going to have lots of repeats over and over farom all the difrent times i've tryed and ge\ot sick of wasting my time.
but hopefully once i get the camra cleard\ed i can just do small uploads like i did last time i was here.. witht eh difrance that this next time i should actuly be able to get my phoptos off line ;)

anywas.. here i am in Laos. it took 3 busses, a limozine (over packed minivan) and getting slightly riped off by a tuk tuk.. but i got back to misok guest house where my friends work,
it sems that for some reason vientine is really full of tourest now, and all the guest houses are full. so last night my friend brought me with him where we slept above an internet cafe. i'ver slept in worse places.. but not sure about where i'll be tonight. i hope to look to rent a room here, even if i only use it one month out of the 3 i'd need to rent it for it would probaly be cheaper that reanting a room at a guest house, if there were rooms avalable.. so we shall see. i like laos and wouldn't mind living here for awhile but i'd endup needing to rent a motorcycle, ect etc etc.. so i might be more than i want to deal with right now..
last night my friend deth brought me out, he's funny anlways trying to get me to talk to the Lao girls here.. even if it's just to say "young lady" (in lao) to girls we ride past.. is odd to be in a cluture where it's so ok, just to say hello to anyone, ask anyone what job they have, a commen way to say hello is to ask if you have a girlfriend. lol,
and getting used to the trafic is a bit to get used to again aswell. they ignore all signs, right of ways, ect. you can drive on the sidewalk, right side of the street, left, midle. we almost got hit by a truck yesterday seeing how no one stops at stop signs.. i can't belive last tiem i was here, i was riding around.. lol. crazy.
ahh. i'm at 5% of the batch of photos i'm working on and i'm already sick of being in here.. ack!
suck!
and it failed, i had to restart it.. i've been on the computer now for 3 hours and my brain hurts..
i gotta figure out another sulution... :S
eek, computer crashed, but i just found a file full of old blogs that i guess never made it up.. lol, gues i'll have to do something with them some day..
so anyways, my friends here pulled me away fromt eh computer for a bit to eat with them, so i feel a bit better.. after some critter organ soup and raw bitter beef (lap) and sticky rice.. i'm back at trying to get this to work..
so I don't continue to up load the same pics over and over again i guess i'm going to have to go through all the photos on fliker and try to see whats up and pick out ones that arn't thre yet..
guess i'm not going to geta chance to go to the stadum today to go lift.. oh well, hopefully tomarow..
i'm also going to see if i can hide some files on this computer to try and upload while i'm away.. lol..
so later today a friend is bringing me to go check out an apt they say is in walking distance to here.. maily good so i can walk to the natnal stadum, they have a bunch of classes offered there, which i'd like to check out.. i think judo, akido, boxing.. and a olimpic size pool and weight room.. woot! as long as i can avoid the beerlao, and not get shot, ran over, or imprisoned this town could be good for me ;)
anyways, my brain is turning to jelly so i'm gonna stop babbleing now.. geeze bloging is lame

to nong kai

2008-01-02T22:03:00.000-08:00

trying to throw up a quick something, about to head off to nong kai to try to get to the friendship brige.
it's funny to get reminded, it dosen't matter what the price is suposed to cost.. your sol white if you don't pay wat we want. lol.
yea so we shall see.
some crazy (limozine) gona drop me off in a fild o donkeys,
ok, mistakenly droped more $ into thisa computer.. oh well, then at least i'm not totaly out of time.
so, i'm heading to laos, just came from the last 3 days in Loie (luy)
this last timei was in the (city) area, a bit difrent than my last trips where i was in a sm,all village.. well, i was still in a small village, but a town like area of it.
so next it's off to try to get through the border, last time i delt with the laos border/passport crap they wanted to throw me in jail.. or at least scare the crap out of me saying i had snuk into there country, and falsafied my stamps! eekk!
but for the most part i love Laos PDR, i think this next time i'll stay for about 2 week, depending.
mainly need to get back to BKK, for trainingm, and to get some $ from a friend.
so we shall see.
Laos is like the wild west version of thailand, makes me intrested to see what the real cambidia is going to be like. but that'll takle living there for awhile or meeting someone from there first.. eh.

gotta say i am really not in the mod to try and haggle a ride out to the friendship brige from shady tuk tuk drivers.. fist i need to get to noig kai, tyhe city with the brige, then a tuk tuk to the brige, then a bus across the brige, and then another bus into the city.. if i can figure it out.. last time a nice lao girl grabed me by the hand (i was petaticly trying to figure out which bus to take.. and all the tuk tuk drivers were saying there was no bus,, and being a pin..
fuck, out of time... till next time..
i hoipe everyone is happy and healty.
xoxoxo

har har har...

2007-12-29T00:42:00.000-08:00

ahhh..
so i whent to boxing,
well first i pick up some fruit to snack on (try to gain some mucle here..) and picked up bandaids and tape and iodine to cover the holes that i have worn in my knuckles. (yea i get alot of strange looks at my bandaged hands.. lol what ever.)
so.. gonna share here a bit, prepare to loose some respect for me,lol
so i chance into my fight short and relize i forgot my manties (man panties as roxane used to call them) and i also for got my ankle braces.. yea a good start.. what ever i'll make do.. so what if i end up fashing my goods at a monk and some thai school girls.. fuck it.
i strat as i alwas do and oil up like a 70's porn start with boxing oil.. it's like tiger balm if tigerbalm was gear oil mixed with gasoline and angry gofers. (just is ok)
it warms the mucles and get you going.. un les you forgot you chonies and get some on your junk... oh sweet jeebus! i've done it before but that kind of pain you just don't remember till it happens again. ack!
anyways, 20min jumping rope and that horable burning sensation has finaly passed, do some kicking, wrap my hands and get ready to hit the bag for a bit.. jab jab.. ok.. jab jab cross... what the fuck! i feel this weird springy feeling in my forarm... look down and my right for arm it about 2x the size of my right... crap.
so i go over and ice it... 1/2 the guys there say it's nothing and go train (the you fucking pussy part is just implyed of cource) the outher half wince at looking at it and say thats not good.. lol well i iced it and took the day off for the class.. if it dosn't get better ina few days i'll do something abut it.. but now i'm anoyed.. the one thing that keeps me modritly sane and out of a downward spriale of mopyness has left me a chewed up freak.. fuck.. so, i decided to head back to the internet cafe and waste a bunch of money.. on the bright side.. i'll have all my photos up loaded soon, after bigthing the bullet and getting a flickr pro acount and a new card reader.. woopie look at me spend $$..

days

2007-12-28T22:00:00.000-08:00

torn up.
a night full of savage nightmares, of a past not that far gone.
still haunted.
flys continually try to land in the torn up flesh of my knuckles, it's disgusting.
I stopped coughing up blood. in an hour i go in again to train. and to be fustrated with myself for being in such pitiful shape. like somehow being strong enough will some how fix things.
i'm probably just getting wound up before i jump into Laos. I'm contemplating getting a lonely planet to bring.. i idea just seems absurd.. too much like all outer ideas i suppose.
but going in a something. so forward and on ward and all good thing to come.

something...

2007-12-28T03:13:00.000-08:00

yea something...
guess i should. I stoped bothering to blog for a bit when i relized i had made 17 bucks so far.not that i blog thinking thats it's gonna get me rich, but fuck. guess adsence isn't my travel savyor. lol.
i guess I should relate sisket, or my trip into cambodia, or getting stung a bunch of times by some poisenes fishys. but i don't much feel like it.
maybe sometime i'll bother to talk about all that, but i'm sure i'll have just 1/2 forgoten about it anyways..
so what then.... (side note, is there a blogger tracker so I can see if anyone is even reading this?)
well i've been getting heavy into the boxing. took my 4th class today, so i can't move my head with out turning my sholder, all my knuckles and hamberger. and by round 3 i was coughing up an amazing vibrently red blood. i'm sore but i feel alive. as long as i don't think too hard on it i feel like i'm acomplishing something. (ust don't think too hard!)
lol
i'm trying to do 2 days on 2 days off. hoping it'll give my body a bit of time to repair it's self. but not too long to where i start getting out of shape. but i haven't been doing too bad, keeping away from booze has helped.. though it makes me a total bore to all my thai friends, and new people i now don't meet.. cuz thats what everyone here dose.. oh well. at least soon i'll be able to tear peoples heads off.. or something.
i've been blowing money like it's out of style.. well, not whitey style.. thats staying in a 20 doller room eating overpriced western food, and getting tons of hookers... none of which intrest me in the least, so i guess it's not that bad, but i'm taking taxis everywhere, ends up being at least 6 bucks a day/// and that adds up. not as bad as going out drinking, where you spent 30 and the nights 1/2 through but still not good.
i've got a few instructers on the take so i'm getting one hell of a workout, it's costing me an extra 50B a day but really that ain't shit, and today I got 6 rounds muythai 6 rounds boxing and round light sparing and a round knee sparing.. preaty dam good.. of cource till later when i'm dieing in pain.
so on the 31st i fly to Udon, my first thai flight, I normaly go bus but i'm going with a friend and they are talking a fight so thats that.. cost quite a bit.. but I keep reminding myself that one of my import ideas may work so eh.
after udon i go to Luy and then i need to find my way to Laos to take care of some visa stuff. i plan on about 2 weeks there and then back down to bkk.. anyways.. I'm gonna see if i have anyluck with flicker, if so maybe there will be some pics up.. but mostliely i'll just pund my head through the moniter in fustration :)

back to BKK

2007-12-16T16:16:00.000-08:00

I just got off the 11 hour bus ride to bkk, from chaing mai. i'm stinky any delirious. I decided to go 1st class instead of vip this time, don't know if i'll be doing that again anytime soon (the girl on the computer next yo me is singing (zombie) poorly,)
I was squished next to an older business man, who I think got the worse part of the bargain, once i realised i didn't smell so hot.. opps, fucking white people.
anyways, last time I was talking about the day long off road ride we went on, which was great, but a bit sketchy at times, like at one point where I was looking back to see how far back the guys were an came about 2 inches to driving off a cliff. looked like about a 15 foot drop into dense forest the the vegetation was so think you couldn't tell what was down there.
also, I was riding on duel sport tires so any part I was going down hill I was just sliding, the entire time. which isn't so bad on a dirt bike but still a bit sketchy, i was told the other bikes the guys rented didn't have that problem at all with the knobies.
every once in a awhile we'd come across a little old lady on a scooter loaded down with baskets going up one of these roads and be amazed (and feel a little less manly)
lol., the road ended up leading to some paved roads and after asking quite a few nice folks which way to ching mai we found our way back. everyone ass tired.
a few days later I when out again through a small village on the outskirts of chaing mai and found some dirt trails, which lead into heavy foliage, wouldn't quite call it thje forest but it was pretty thick. took some trails deeper and deeper till we came across a little old man how was very insistent that we go farther down the way we were going.. that or he was saying don't! go down that way.. lol.. i tryed to ask if he wanted to attach his cart to my bike and i'd give him a ride but the language barrar was too great and I think we all just confused each other.. we ended up going off on a side trail past abandoned houses and farms, the trail got smaller and smaller at times disappearing in the thick undergrowth and reappearing here and there. but after a bit I kept thinking "this is how tourist get lost in the jungle" so I finally tured around and made my way back to the city in time to return the bike (it was costing me a fortune anyways.)
most the rest of the time in Chang Mai was spent going to biker partys, getting presured to drink, though I did a deasent jopb at staying fiarly sober. just topping off my drink with soda water any chance I got before they could pour more wisky in.
the last day before I left Pee Pot (the head of the Chang Mai Hellrasers bike club) put togeather a ride, (I rented a honda super four for the day which wasn't too bad)we ended up riding for 11 am to 5pm with many breaks, if flicker didn't suck such balls I could put some of them up) anyways.. it was good fun, the bike club guys on there chromed out jap choppers and harly gear looked the part.
hopfully I'll get to meet up with them next time i'm up, Pee Pot is suposed to keep an eye out for a bike for me to buy...
anyways,. now I'm of to find a place to shower. I thinkbeing white, i should just be able to walk past the from desk of any guest house and head upstairs to take one. guess it's time to start getting used to cold showers again. lol.

flickr sucks!!!

2007-12-14T21:06:00.000-08:00

wow dose flickr suck ass!!!
I opend a acount so I could add photos here and it was such a huge pain in the ass.
I think i already have like 5 acounts through them, so every user name I have is taken up, but i can't log into any of them.
lame!
I hope the CEO of ficker gets raped by wild angry pigs!
i like how they give you a security question but then restrict you on the awncer.. thats preaty fucking stupid.. whats you fave this of that.. sorry thats not enough letter, why don't you like something that has more letters.. thanks turd suckers!
and after alllll that i try to up load photos.. theres a limit. so what I need a acount for every 100 photos?
i'm so sick of companys making there products a pain to use. yes that is a big fuck you to apple for handy capping all there products, all the cunt phone companys in the usa, ect ect ect.

ok, i deleted a bunch of my photos so hopfully they'll all fit, i'd concider paying for an upgreaded acount but the adsence adds on this page arn't paying shit, and I'd hate to suport flickr till they chang the way they do shit.
but, posably there be some photos up sooner than later

chang mai

2007-12-14T00:01:00.000-08:00

ok i'm going to try and spew out as much as i can about this while i can, it seems i have quite the limited attention span for blogging when not totally in the mood..
that was suposed to be taken care of by the palm life drive and brand new ir keyboard i brought with me, but about 8 of the keys on the key board arn't working.. so that just makes it ttaly infuriating to try and use.
but here's a brief recap thus far.
flew out of LAX around noon, and after alot of bumbling around i found my way to my gate and onto my plane.
the flight was super easy due to the fact that i had 2 Valium with me, so after my first meal on the plane I took them with a glass of wine and was out for about 12 hours, when they woke me for meal before landing, easiest 14 hour flight ever!
then i had a stop over in taipai and another short flight to BKK.
I trudged around the BKK airport a ton trying to see if I could get a connecting flight up to chaing mai for bike week were some friends from EBRMC were taking part of.
well all fights were booked so I shot out a txt to all my thai Friends saying i was in town and after getting on the wrong bus found one into down town BKK.
luckly while on the bus I got a call froma friend inviting me over so then I hoped off the bus and got a cab (BKK cab drivers always get lost! i'm not sure if it's because the street system is so fucked or because they are probably just a farmer with a bad crop last season)
anyways, got a shower and a few hours of sleep then headed down to khosarn rd (yea I hate it there but it's a convenient hub)
first out i found out all trains were booked and even the tourist buses were full so it was down to the bublic bus terminal, but first i hit up an ATM then whent by my old muythai studio and gave them a ton of $ but should keep me set with boxing lessons for when ever i'm in BKK. I took a class and really didn't do as bad as I thought I would for having nt trained for the last 6 months, after a 4 hour class it was to the bus station, but unluckily i miss pronounced the name and said chit lom not mo chit, and got a grand frightening tour of Bangkok rush hour traffic on the back of a komakosy motorcycle taxi, but i fily got there and got a ticket for a train heading out in about 3 hours, so I sat on the ground with the 2000 or so other people waiting for buses out. fuck it's tough to sit on the ground for that long i a crowd and not be able to point your feet in anyone direction (cuz thats super rude!)
the bus ride when fine, really the same as anytime i'm onm a bus tran or plane, i sit there really needing to pee but not wanting to bother or wake the person i'd need to climb over to get to do so.
we stop ed at around 2 in the morning to get food but I couldn't find my food vouture (and really the government food terminals are so crazy, no really, billions of half awake people skittering around trying to grab food, use the rest room, smoke, and find there way back to there bus before it leaves with out them. I got out tryed to figure it out and said screw it, the food is never that good anyways (on the trip back i'll take some photos to post.)
at the end i got into chaing mai before the sun came up found a moto taxi and got into the city.. where into the city i didn't know and it took a few hours of walking around with a crappy com pus and a crappy map to figure it out, luckily i came across a really cool ceremony where there was hundreds of monks brought in on military trucks and about a mile of tarps laid out on a street , then the monks would walk down the center of the tarp and people sitting on either side would give them offerings. the still datrk sky was lit up by thousands of hanging lanterns and some really pretty music was playing from speakers that were everywhere,
I continued to walk around for about 5 hours till some places were open so i could use the Internet and find out where my Friends were.
after I met up with on guy who i had only b\met I think once before (JJ) he gave me a ride atround to a few bike shops so I could try and get a deal on a motorcycle for while I was therere. after a bunch of serching I found that all big bikes (anything over 200cc) are ass expencive like close to 20 a day! but i knew if I got some good use out of it it would be worth it.
unluckly trever was sick, and soon after JJ got sick aswell, so I ended up just spending a bunch of time on my own for a few days, wandering around the city and such.
JJ was kind enough to let me crash on the floor of his room for 2 nights though so I couldn't be too hard on myself for spending so much $ on the bike.
we whent to some biker rallys, most of which were preaty lame, sitting at a big table somewhere listing to bad western muisic covers and drinking...
the thai bikers are a funny bunch, just like the punkers, raga gutys ect, they are all so very into it. but most look like a weird cookie cutter usa biker image. funny but cute.
we also met up with some of the santa crawl guys geary, mike, and soran. so we had 3 santas with us which was intresting. and yes, one night i threw on the stinky santa outfit for a bar crawl.
we finaly did get to do some riding, and ended up on some fantastic rough dirt roads, unluckly everyone was much much slower than me (JJ had already left at this point) so I was on my own for much of the ride then I'd wait 10 min or so for everyone to catch up and continue on (I think being the right size for the bike made a big diff) also i think the theory of on dirt more gas is the soulution to everthing (which it is) got me so far ahead of the pack.
but fuck I forgot how much fun dirt bikes are! now I really want one.
also the it was just amazing beutiful out in the deep jungle/forest. I can't wait to do that again..
more later...

2007-12-07T16:47:00.000-08:00

well I was going to post some blogs I wote wile on the plane but of cource my ir key board s L,W,and X keys stoped working, now I can't even get the Palm life drive to turn on so... eh.
i'm in chaing mai now, I just got off a 10 hour bus ride, and have been just walking around waiting for the sun to come up. soon some places should be open and I'll go grab some food and get my bearing a bit better.
the plane ride was a breeze, I dropped 2 Valium and slept 12 hours of the flight not too bad at all. so far everything has been really easy, my cell phone still works, I got some overpriced cards made up at kinkos before i left the usa but they turned out soooo shitty I'm going to just have to throw them away, there goes close to 50 bucks! fucking kinkos!
other wise i'm up in chaing mai for bike week hopefully going to meet up with trever and jj from ebrmc and do some riding. I'm still trying to get a hold of theses guys but now i know where there guest house is and I've figured out my bearings a bit (after about 2 hours of wandering around totally turned around.)
other than that, my first day in thailand whent well, a friend let me sleep at there place, I signed up for 30 classes at my old boxing gym. and trained for the first time inn 6 months yesterday. i'm feeling a bit sore but it's not too bad yet ;)
I expected to be in much worse shape. most people can't make it through one of the classes, but I struggled through.. hopefully some time I'll go out and buy some new muythai gear.. I'm also considering on getting a run of Drunken Monkey fight shorts made up to sell. that should be amusing. if it happens..though I'm guessing it will just end in our regulars sitting at the bar in nothing but shiny short short shorts... not too sure if that a great thing or a crime against nature.
ok. take care...

24 hours till go

2007-12-04T09:54:00.000-08:00

I'm getting a slow start this morning. guess with getting a bunch done yesterday thats ok.
going to try and get some biz card printed up at kinkos with my info on them, and a few outher little things, then early in the morning I'm off. hoping to cach up with treve and some of the eastbay rats to do a mc ride across some of thailand.
outherwise what I'm going to do there is preaty much in the air.
ok, gotta run. i'll try and post again before I take off.

getting things togeather...

2007-12-03T22:25:00.000-08:00

so, so far the blogger page has been a flop (which is why I haven't bothered to post much) I was hoping that clicks on the adds on this page would cover the Internet cafes where I'd need to go to down load the blogs, but so far out of the hundred or so people who have come to this page to read these blogs only 7 in all have clicked on one of the ad banners. so it's not looking too promising. but I'll keep going as we'll see.. just in case today I went out and bought a small paper journal (which is a much easier way to go) too bd i got this set up so late or I'd know weather to bring the palmtop and key bord with me.. so far it looks like i'm going to be bring a heap or tec crap with me which doesn't make me too happy. :( last thing i need is more crap to lug around so for i's looking like my big 30g ipod, ipod shuffle, palm life drive, infred keyboard, folding speakers, digital camera, the cameras stupid over sized charger, and an electronic dictionary. plus ear bud head phones, and all the cables that come with that stuff. so lame.. i'm going to sit down and take a long look at this junk. it's just way too much. i've been figthing the urge to get a mini tri pod as well, seeing how most pics i take i need to balance my cam on something so i can run and jump in the shot...
anyways..
I spent the whole day running around getting last min stuff finished. printed out my photos to share with people i meet, deposited the $ I made in the last 6 months into the bank, and coin stared all the coins that have built up, got a small leather bound note book, picked up some cloths from rei, and bought a new digital camera, yea yea, I know i could have gotten it cheaper in Thailand , if i could have found it, but it would have been a huge hassle and the cam i found was exactly what i was looking for. though not as efficient as my last cam which took smart flash so i could swap back and forth between the life drive, also i have a small flah reader so I wouldn't have had to bring another cable, and it took aa battery's, so i wouldn't have needed a charger that bigger than the camera it's self. tomorrow I think i'm going to cut down the chargers cord which bundled is almost as big as the cam as well. i'm also tempted to break open the charger gut it and just bring the power supply which i'm sure is tiny... eh well see.
oh and something extremely exciting, my folks offed as a xmas/birthday gift they'll help me get lasic eye surgery for me when I get back into the country!!! that should be really nice.. so we'll see what happens with that, keeping my fingers crossed!
my next update will be from the lifedrive and keyboard to see how that works...

San Diego

2007-11-29T08:53:00.000-08:00

So.. Andrea and I drove down from SF to SD yesterday, she ended up deciding to hold onto my truck so those of you in the bay area may see it around now and then. we made it down in about 7 hours not great but not too bad, but the drive was painless and passed by quickly.. and I got ABBEYS!! woot! that was sweet, one of my few guilty little pleasures, ooh meaty!
unluckily my parents had forgotten that I was leaving the country so soon (my fault for not reminding them more) so my mother is out of town for about 1/2 of my stay down here. which is lame seeing how I came down here a week before I fly out to get to spend time with my parents.. oh well that's life.
Andrea is going to be hanging out for a about 2 days so we are going to try and run down into Mexico today or tonight which should be interesting... to say the least ;) how do you say "the hooker was already dead when I got here and thats definitely not my donkey officer!" in Spanish?
otherwise we are going to visit some of Andrea's piercer friends down here and the rest just play by ear.
Also it seems that the AdSense banners are working now, so when people click through the ads on my blogger page I get some money which is exciting! woot! I made $1.60 yesterday, which isn't a whole lot but enough for an hour on a computer in Thailand!
anyways I'll be down here till Dec 5th when I fly out to Bangkok, then I think I'm going to hop a bus (then boat) directly to Cho Chang. Which is an island south of Bkk where some friends live, and I have some of my stuff stored. it should be a good spot to chill out with people I know till I recover from jet lag.
also I heard that a bunch of the East Bay rats are headed to Chaing Mai around that time for bike week, so I may try to head up there... OK, I'm off to go forage for food.

about to leave the bayarea

2007-11-27T09:54:00.002-08:00

this was the post I was working on earlyer when my internet conection craped out, luckly this program auto saves... anyways, it's incomplete but heres a start...

it's Tuesday, I have my last drunken monkey tonight (my night at a night club) I'm feeling the weird calm in the middle of the storm. after running around like mad trying to see people before i go, making sure everyhing has a place and the huge mountan of bureaucracy that one must crawl out of it taken care of (it seems like so much of our life is spent tending to that machine, DMV reg, turning off the phone, tax shit, ect, ect, ect) I don't think i've even gotten all that crap taken care of from last time i left, but fuck it.. gotta break free of some of chains that....
anyways. :P
tonight monkey, going to try to sell off some of the last stuff I brought back from Thailand last time, don't think I'm going to bother with that again, didn't seem to be worth all the hasle. seems like some people are more cut out for that, shit I know one guy who easly payed off his trip with the load he brought back from thaiand a few months ago, but I'm not up on what over priced crap is selling nowadays.
after monkey going to drop the trucky
(was going to be a pic of the truck i took the day before)
off at a friends house, then hopefully get headed down south before it's too late. should take about 8 hours to get down there.
I'm still working on getting everything ready (palm life drive, ipod, ect) but normaly what ever takes up the most of you time and is the biggest pain in the ass, normaly is the least used/ useless... thats been true time and time again. but dealing with computer stuff out thee in a big old pain i the ass.... and I really don't want to have to worry about my laptop over there.. last time just hving the ipod with me was enough stree in it's self, but we shall see. if the adsence thing pays off, then it will be worth the time dealing with the palm computer for blogging.
all I have left is to grab some wool shirts from REI, a new pair of carharts (fuck totaly forgot about that till now, some books,, and i should be ok to roll. I'm sure tons more will come up at the last sec..
I think I'm going to wait till I get over there to pick up a small backpack, and a new camera..
still not sure exactly what the plan is for when I get there, but I always feel thats a better way to go.. then you don't have to change plans, fee that your stuck to a sedule ect... ok, i'm finishing this up after a long night at monkey (re connection crashing earlier) so my brain is 1/2 numb / gots the dumb.. time for a few hours sleep on Michael Monsters couch. before I need to spend (now) today running around like a decapitated chicken, and then driving for 8 hours..
Noble

टेस्ट 2

2007-11-19T19:58:00.000-08:00

jbojbn

Starting

2007-11-18T13:18:00.000-08:00

So this is just a test, and may posably become the new home of my blogs. I'm trying to figure out a system were I can add adds and hopefully get some click through, which will hopefully off set the cost of going to internet cafes to post blogs and also hopefully motivate me to get my ass in gear and post more.
if this seems to work I'll post some back story and such.
I'm still a bit confused/surprised at the response to my previous blogs, and how much people were into them. but friends liked them so I tried to continue posting them (even though I have a strong aversion to opening up about my life...)
anyways, check this out. and hopefully I'll have something set up and running before I leave the country.
Noble